SUSHI LOVE RICE

Transiting

2012-02-02T09:17:00.009+08:00

January 12th - February 1st (3 weeks) -----------Kuching

February 2nd - February 7th (1 week) ----------- Kota Kinabalu

February 8th - February 14th (1 week) ---------- Kuala Lumpur

February 15th-February 28th (2 weeks) ----------New Zealand

February 29th - March 12nd (2 weeks) -----------Kuala Lumpur

March 13th - March 17th (5 days) ------------------Singapore

Got my camera in my bag and a notebook I got from Christmas, and I'm off with the Holy Spirit to take the month off. Will be thinking and praying over my future through this month before making decisions on my transit of the next phase of life.

Pray along with me?

As you go, preach this message: 'The kingdom of heaven is near.' Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received, freely give. - Matthew 10:7-10

Yeah let's take this message to the ends of the world!

新的一年

2012-01-21T22:08:00.002+08:00

好友说，新的一年，他要努力地变成另外一个人。

我跟自己说，新的一年，我要努力找回真正的自己。

KG

2012-01-20T15:48:00.003+08:00

22 months

1357 hours

30 people

2 ladders

1 still camera

288,000 Jelly Beans

Kinna Grannis- "In Your Arms"

Blog Revived!

2012-01-16T20:50:00.009+08:00

I was planning on writing a cheezily long introduction for the beginning of a revived blog, with a long accent of "SUSHI...LOVE...RICE!!!..." but I guess it is just not appropriate for the matter.

(If there is any clarification needed on the name of this blog, come let me save you some wild guessing. It's not a hidden message for a romantic accord for someone I like, neither has it got anything to do with me having an extraordinary liking for sushi/rice. SUSHILOVERICE simply means.........nothing :p I got a hold of it because it was so catchy to me. Maybe my businesses would be name after this in the future. "SUSHI LOVE RICE COFFEE" or "SUSHI LOVE RICE BOUTIQUE". OK let's not get carried away)

I am writing in here officially to declare, (to anyone else that still reads this blog and especially to me myself) that SUSHILOVERICE shall not be an "antique vase" in the miserable corner of the huge World Wide Web where only random handful of strangers would mis-stumbled into while google-searching other stuff.

I guess it's the hype of facebook and twitter and which-so-ever new social network sites that has swollen the place of blogs for self-expression and story sharing. The tolerance for words has also decrease generally among web-users than a little longer that 5 lines are unbearable to read let alone be understood.

Well I decided to come back to this blog where the entries used to be:

33 entries in a month?? Are you kidding me?

That's more than one a day =.=

Wonder what was going through that teenage world of mine. haha.

And now, an amount more than 5 is a miracle

It's not that life has been less exciting, as if the number of post shows the degree of happenings in life. No not at all. In fact there is more and more great things to share and write, more provoking thoughts that appears and even unexplainable things that I should write!

Hence! I shall not let my thoughts or things I meditate on go down the drain of forgetfulness or ignorance. Will be writing more often from now and so,

I declare the REVIVAL of SUSHILOVERICE!!! ROAR!!!

oh yea btw, I have braces on now :D

HappY HOLYdays EVERYONE!

photo credits: Jetaime

2012

2012-01-02T11:44:00.005+08:00

I was never a big fan of countdowns on new years or any other occasions. The roller-coaster hype is too much to bear compared to the comfort of a chair, in front of a tele with junk food on hand; or the warm-my feeling of spending it with loved ones and God in church and the after-church food-fellowship. It has always been that way, slow and steady, warm and fuzzy :)

So when I got the job for emcee-ing a new year's countdown, in a 5 hour drive from KL, for quite a fair pay, I was puzzled in my own excitement XD

What is New Year to you?

The crowd were mostly families with children running all around. Maybe New Year's to them was a declaration of holidays and spending time together, nothing much like what I've prepared about resolutions and hope for a better year.

A bridge away from where I was, and probably the same all over the world, younger generation party hard to celebrate the passing of the old and the entering of a new and unknown year. Maybe some hadn't had a great year; some may not know what to make up of it; while some may just be overwhelmed with the past 12 months.

Marcel, had to work through the new years. He said he would have been partying as well with everyone else, but he has a family now. That's her lovely young girl whom joined him right before the countdown.

"It only happens once a year, where the hopeless can be romantic; and a resolution can become a revelation. Its about being able to do more, give more, and hope more."

New Year's Eve, The Movie

I am very satisfied with my past one year. Although there were definitely reasons to be unhappy with, the good sight of it all just overshadowed any reason to moan with. The excitement of my last year in college with an unknown future ahead has been really overwhelming, the wonderful people that keeps on being added into my close circle, the people that I've helped and helped me through the year, the miracles that I've came to know and be apart of (legs growing and blind eyes opening!) and of course that irreplaceable relationship with Him that has grown so much.

Its 2012! A year that is going to be filled with unknowns, a year right after 2011 which had the most natural disaster in history, a year which people made movies to tell of the end of the world;

But its gonna be an awesome year for sure! A year filled with surprises, a year to desire more, to hope and dream bigger than ever before, and a year to love more and forgive even more.

2012 is gonna be the bomb! And I mean it in a good way :)

Happy 2012 Everybody!!!

I Really Love You

2011-11-26T21:55:00.006+08:00

By: Brian Johnson

C F C

I really love You, I love You tonight/right now (repeat)

The Sun

2011-11-26T11:54:00.005+08:00

Growing up as a normal kid in society, I learnt of values and principals through our parents; through the way education groomed me; but at the same time there were many values that I've picked up through the frictions of life unconsciously. And that brings us to the story today:

It's a Saturday. I got up in the morning and did something very unusual, hand-wash my clothes. I'll be having a performance in two days time and I wanted to wear this self-designed shirt which was left in the laundry. So i got up, took the laundry bucket and ran water with detergent over that T-shirt, along with the other few pieces in the bucket, white first then the blacks.

After rinsing them separately, I hooked them on hangers and went to the balcony where the sun was shining through. That place is usually packed out with clothes from everyone else from the same floor as we share only one balcony for the laundry of all the 40 residence. I shifted some hangers not belonging to me aside to find some space for my clothes to be dried.

As I was hanging my clothes, white first then black, I moved them a number of times hoping to get equal portions of the sun rays on all of my clothes so that they can dry evenly. While shifting them here and turning their angles there, I realized a beautiful truth.

The sun was and will always be there, generously pouring out its heat on all of the damp clothes. I wasn't actually making much sense by trying to help make sure the sun shines evenly. Growing up in the world, we are always thought to strive our best, to get good grades and prove ourselves more worthy. We are thought that we can be rank based on our grades, and we get different treatment and care if we are in the first class compared to the last. When we grow out of school, the society thought us to be out-spoken, and to get success means to out-perform others, then comes the reward and favor.

The sun thought me a valuable lesson. Regardless of the color of the clothes, its dampness, its quality of material or how much I like the one more than the other, all of them when placed under the sun would get the same amount of sun-rays. No more no less. It hit me that God is exactly like that too. There is nothing that we need to do to earned more of His love and glory. There is nothing we should do to try and use what society teaches us to get more of God. His love is like the sun, whether we try hard enough, or just lay restfully on the ground, the sun would inevitably shine gently and generously on everyone. The same intensity, the same warmth, the same love.

'There are many values that we picked up through the frictions of life unconsciously', and these values that we hang on to may not always be true. It may be defiant to some that receiving without earning hard enough is a joke. But hey, what's the definition of receiving in the first place? It may be hard to comprehend that God loves everyone the same, irrespective of our efforts and deeds, the murderers as much as the pastors, but that's how amazing He is. And that's exactly how it was meant to be.

I thank God, that all I have to do to know more of Him; to receive more of His blessings; and to grow more in Him, is just to let His love shine on me. No competition, no hard works, no striving.

Sometimes, we just have to let the Sun shine.

Tumblr Fever

2011-11-19T10:28:00.003+08:00

haha!

but before that, there is

-loads of last minute assignments,

-meetings and arrangements,

-events and more events,

-overslept and sleepless nights,

and above all

there is CHRISTMAS!

(which i happen to celebrate from the 1st to the 31st December)

Embrace yourself!

It's Christmas!

Encountering God

2011-10-28T18:21:00.004+08:00

Your love never fails, never gives up, never runs out on me

Thank You Lord

Tomorrow

2011-10-09T00:02:00.008+08:00

Tomorrow,

I turn my back against the world,

Ignorance, indulgence, you have no root in me,

Distractions, temptation, be cast into the sea!

Tomorrow,

I shall no longer conform to the world,

Old ways of living, I rebuke you!

Arise and shine! For that is God's divine will.

Tomorrow,

I'll wake up a new person.

I will be strong in the Lord, faithful to men.

High up I shall soar, with the Holy Spirit I will reign!

In Jesus' name, Amen!

Poster

2011-10-01T22:03:00.004+08:00

Like!

My senior pastor Ps. David will be preaching in TARC CF the following two Tuesdays on God's love in the old and new testament. This is going to be significant!

Revival!

Roar!

May we all fall more in love with God! For He was radically in love with us before creation!

2011-09-26T12:20:00.005+08:00

Tumblr!

2011-09-16T23:24:00.003+08:00

Source: mighty2save

Source: xoxocreatedbeautifulxo

Tumblr's pretty awesome!

Check these out :

http://lmaogtfo.tumblr.com

http://did-you-kno.tumblr.com/

Well i guess it would be better than browsing facebook and act as if you're not waiting for more notifications :)

Hold or Roll

2011-09-04T21:53:00.003+08:00

Rocks hold firm while water's might

Sends pebbles rolling left and right.

Call pebbles rock? Set firm their goal?

First flash flood, still pebbles roll.

Not name, nor goal divide the two.

It's how they act. It's what they do.

Size dictates to stone, but you're in control.

Are you rock or pebble? Will you hold or roll?

-MANLY GRANT

Rhymes for the Land

Be in control

2011-08-31T01:04:00.001+08:00

It's the starting of holidays and I'm sort of off the schedule of non-stop happenings. Back in Kuching and cut school away which actually gives you a time frame to work on, there's practically 24 hours for 10 days without specific plans of where to go at what time to meet who.

So, as naturally as it can be, I'll indulge myself in sleeping, movie watching and online surfing. Despite plans of reading the 4 gospels and Acts, it just gets procrastinated and playing Facebook Sims Social which is actually kinda stupid but it just got caught up itself.

pretty awesome house ae? :p

"Tink Tink, who who requested something", "who who wants to be your neighbor", "who who who requested to be your good friend!"

Now everyone's playing "god"

Before i go to bed each night, no matter whether its 11pm or 3am, i would take out half an hour or so to be with God and cast my full attention to Him and Him alone. It's pretty awesome because He actually is there and just giving you all His attention too!

Funny thing is as I pray and soak in His presence, the things that has been occupying my mind most of the day would be interrupting and just wuzzz-ing around my mind. The sims, the background music of the game, their language that goes "fusekGandi", the American movies and ideologies. To reflect back its actually pretty scary how things i've open to could grab such a piece of mind.

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.

Proverbs 4:23

In order to not be a fool or make one out of myself (again) I resort from today, that i shall be careful to what I'm open to, and spending most of my attention and time on. If I'm spending most of my attention on Sims (just so happen it is these few days) MORE than I pay attention to God (through the whole day), then something's wrong! Same applies to my worries and concerns, if they overshadow my focus and sight of God and His Mighty Awesome-ness, then I'm actually worshiping these things. Applies to you?

My son, pay attention to my wisdom, listen well to my words of insight.

Proverbs 5:1

It's just awesome and scary at the same time that God is really with you all the time. ( I think you didn't get that). God! This invisible all powerful and yet personal God, is with you, every second of your life! Well you can take it from the good or bad point of view. As of thinking He's such a stalker, I really hit myself over the times where I think he's not there, and the times where I'm not paying attention to Him. Today, just of any other holidays, I was browsing into some random movies on PPS and saw "How High", some movie about a guy who uses his dead best friend's ashes to plant marijuana and when he smoke on it the best friend came back as a ghost to help him, which was really funny. But I gotta stop half way to get my brother from the airport. Right after i left the computer, a voice came in the volume of stern-Ness and reminder that I should really be looking after what I'm watching. I knew it wasn't my thought because clearly I was so indulge in that comedy, which i now find it really stupid of me to watch that.

For though we walk in the flesh, we are not waging war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ, being ready to punish every disobedience, when your obedience is complete.

Powerful!

Finally, brothers (and sisters), whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.

Too Powerful!

May whoever you are that read this, be it a believer of Jesus or not (yet), do be in control of your mind and thoughts, cause they are so powerful that every great invention came from that part of us. Be in Control my friends! :)

Just for laughs, enjoy the photo below.

Since when do I post my own photos?
Wait, the question should be, since when have I stopped posting my own photos???

Ok it was meant to be a joke. Goodnight peeps :)

考试

2011-08-17T12:32:00.002+08:00

我爱陈绮贞，但我更爱神。
我真的很爱祂，因为他先爱我。
阿门。

考试加油！

不A不归！

《慢灵魂》

2011-08-16T10:48:00.003+08:00

超喜欢他的音乐，

他的正能量，

他的曲风，

他的歌声，

他的幽默，

他的吉他，

他的坦诚，

他的慢灵魂！

SIN

2011-08-15T20:58:00.004+08:00

"Shalom is God's design for creation and redemption; sin is blamable vandalism of these great realities and therefore an affront to their architect and builder."

-Cornelius Platinga

Asia Ablaze

2011-08-06T23:55:00.005+08:00

It wasn't just a time of praising and worshiping in the immediate presence of God

Nor was it just a time of knowing and fellowshipping with Christians all around.

I dare say, its not even all about Dr. Rodney Howard Brown, the great evangelist who came all the way from Florida.

neither was it just about being prayed for or the great experiences.

For too long, we told ourselves Christianity is not a religion; it is a relationship. We know it by hard and we preached it proudly out loud. We go to church in the name of "a relationship" and we do that week by week, year by year. If there is one thing that this conference should impact us in, it is our religiosity.

If it really was a relationship as it should, the church would not have been competitive or stagnant. Revival would have came and the society would have been impacted with the gospel. I realized everyone has the tendency to be complacent and most of us do fall into that trap of the enemy.

Despite being redeemed from the world and put into the glorious Kingdom of God, seated with Christ in identity in the heavenly realms (Ephesians 2:6), we still long for the world. Our hearts are caught up with the world, our dreams, our plans, our preference, that it causes us to be oblivious of the real precious and glorious things.

What are you living for?

There is a famous saying which goes like this, "If you don't have something worth dying for, you have nothing worth living for". I heard an additional saying to that famous quote, "you are merely existing". It couldn't be more true. The world teaches us to just exist, go along with what others are doing, and do it more as long as it feels good, until you grow old and then, die. Is there a purpose? Isn't that just "existing"? It is like we have to go through the motions of life because too bad, we're born into the world, i mean what else can we do but do what everyone is doing?

There's more than this. It is really the time that the children of God should rise up to who they are called to be. They were never merely religious followers or practitioners of a certain way of living (which there are millions of suggested alternatives in the world) We are sons and daughters of the Most High (Psalms 82:6), saved by grace through faith (Ephesians 2:8), adopted into the blessed family (Galations 4:5). We were forgiven of all our sins and redeemed from the dominion of darkness into the Kingdom of light (Colossians 1:13). Angels are guarding us (Luke 4:11) We hold the keys of the kingdom of heaven to bind and loose (Mathew 16:19) and we have the anointing from the Holy one (1 John 2:20).

"The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor; He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed,to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor."

-Luke 4:19

Being a Christian is not the best thing that could happen to you, it is the very purpose that you were created for! You were wonderfully and fearfully made (Psalms 139:14) in the likeness of God. Did you get that? You were made in the very image of the God who created everything! Should we then be of likeness to God, of His beloved children, working for His "Global Enterprise" business, enlarging it and pinning down "competitors". We are called to shine! and be the light and salt to the world. And the best part is, it was never dependent on how good we are, but how graceful and awesome He is!

Come on! Comrades of all tribe and tongue, let us stand firm in the faith, be strong and courageous (1 Corinthians 16:13). Let us turn away from our wicked ways, repent (change the way of thinking) of our mindsets about Christianity, and start to live this great and awesome life filled with the fellowship of the Holy Spirit which gives power to us to perform miracles, signs and wonders, that we could be witness of the resurrection of Christ (produce evidence through wonders) and the world may see and believe, this LIVING God that lives within us.

"I baptize you with water for repentance. But after me will come one who is more powerful than I, whose sandals I am not fit to carry. He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and with fire"

-Mathew 3:11

Heavenly Father, in the name of Jesus I pray that you will touch anyone that reads this, that they would have a deep revelation from the Holy Spirit about what you want to accomplish in and through their lives. I pray that right now as they read, You will even tell them details of their call, through visions and prophecies and dreams and words. Let the fire of the Holy Spirit burn and cleansed any worldly desires that has blocked the flow of Your work in them, and may that same fire flame up a great passion to see the world as how You see it. In Jesus Mighty name I pray.

Amen

Asia Ablaze! Let the flames begin!

photo credits to Jetaime and Chris

Moral & Etika's Powerpoint Slides

2011-07-12T15:26:00.004+08:00

What?? This is one Freaking Cool Religion man!!!

Compromise

2011-07-10T00:48:00.014+08:00

To everything detestable, horrible and anything that is simply wrong, it started with compromising. Comprising simply means saying yes to something that has always been a no. It means giving in towards things we know we should not, and that when we do, our conscience has to be put aside in ignorance.

There are values in life that was passed down from our forefathers, that has created great fruits for what we enjoy today. There are things we stand firmly on, standards and principles which govern and protect the society at large. At the same time, there has always been a small voice in the large crowds which have a different say in things, different ways of seeing things. When these voices springs out to the majority, society usually are in shock or most of the time unsure of appropriate responds. Therefore the minority voices are mostly suppressed and ignored. Although the minority with conflicting views may not always come from a rebellious origin, or they may even be just confused and in need of listeners to understand and help them out. But because the method of treatment towards the "black sheep" have always been looked over or consists of demanding orders such as "change-back-to-normal-or-else", the minority starts to rebel. Using the perspective of being over-written, they voice out their twisted conflicting views with rationality forcing the society to accept them as a means of human-rights respect even if such views may caused demoralization and corruption of values.

Be it from a rebellious motivation, a hurtful upbringing or a protest for an escape of facing their own mess, conflicting view raisers sometimes just need to be listen to. And when people are too norm-oriented that they just cannot accept extreme irregularities in things, they try enforcement of standards causing a deeper hurt in the already unwell souls.

Slowly, compromising comes in. The fact that there is so much "wrongs" and worsening in this world didn't start with what is seen. It started by a simple word called compromising. Corruption of a whole country system started with giving in on obtaining extra benefits through gifts of gratitude. Sexual immorality began humbly through the compromising towards temptation. A slight overlooked attitude of pride brought forth giant egoistic philosophies that are even highly embraced in today's society.

To rationalize things and make things look fair, a whole new standard of "rights" and "wrongs" has to surfaced. The minority may now stand strong on their indifference and be proud of it. While we should always celebrate individualism and uniqueness, they is still a place for what is acceptable and what's not. By far, to differentiate this would be nearly impossible in today's democratic society where everyone gets a say regardless of what motives and where their says are coming from. Religiosity used to has its place in governing such ambiguous lines but today it has been twisted to be seen as only one of the alternatives in moral perspectives.

Truly, there is no way out of this, whether certain actions or behaviors or situations are acceptable or not having said that everything now is justifiable through anything. Lady Gaga has her say on philosophy while Oprah and Tom Cruise each has their own too. What would the next decade be if such compromising continues? Would murder even be justifiable having seen the moral corruption infection in such rate? How would we teach our next generation when everyone protests for a right for almost any behavior?

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My soul grieves, seeing friends close to me submitting to the power of compromising. From fighting for one-self to being all self-minded; from the line of having new friends to committing adultery; from being fond for a same gender to accepting their self-makeup destiny of being gay. There is practically almost no lines on a say of rights and wrongs. If it feels good, do it, and do it as much as you like or can.

However I refuse to see hopelessness in such situations. Not until i lose my foundation of where the line is, with the accountability to God. Having a belief of God, God is the only uncompromisable being and would forever be. Be it if you believe in a higher supreme being, He is forever Holy and in authority. The world can sway the way it wishes to but God's standards are unshakable. What is righteous remains righteous, what is a sin remains a sin. I'm glad that there is such clarity in God's Kingdom not so that I could be controlled and be pressured to live each day making sure I don't cross the line, but because I see that there is an incorruptible government, being that hope for what the world should and can be.

I do know given the clarity of what is right or wrong does not help one live accordingly to it, but that even makes more sense of who I believe in. Jesus who knows our weaknesses too well that He came and walked that life of impossibility where there was never compromising and only righteousness. He did that so that we do not have to do that. And with the simple identification of what He has done for us, we now are able to fight the temptations of "compromising", and be holy, because he is holy.(1 Peter 1:16)

The thief comes and steal, kill, and destroy

John 10:10

No thief comes in the house publicly and tells his intention of arrival. He creeps in quietly through the back door, steals away small items that are less noticeable, then he comes in for the bigger ones. And before anyone knows it, the house has been emptied or even set on fire.

I hereby speak not of conformitive demands, but of sincere warning. Do not let the unharmful outlooks of compromising bring you down. Do Not Compromise. Horrible endings start with unharmful, small little wrong-doings, altered viewpoints started with accepting conflicting ideas without holding on firm foundations; sexual relationships started with the justifying of our lustful desires.We have our next generation to be accountable to. Would you like to teach your kids on the benefits of abortion?

夜谈

2011-07-07T00:47:00.004+08:00

跟妈和弟在超市买了一大包美露。最近对咖啡敏感了，觉得咖啡因性格太强硬激烈，一把就是那股好胜的气概，硬是要把自己浓厚的味道蔓延似的霸占領域。最近的我没有那股好胜欲，还是请来美露代班个好几天好了。今晚的夜空很宁静，泡了美露到窗台前叹口气。和上帝聊了几句，跟他说了我对美露一路来的眷恋。哈哈。他笑了。

听了韦礼安的人质，其实没有朋友说得那么好听。终觉得他少了杨宗伟的凝聚力很感性，少了阿妹的坦诚。不过还是要谢谢他，因为让我想起了自己。很多时候，不管在K房或名歌餐厅唱歌时都太过注重唱腔表现，太在意听者的感觉；而常常忘了体会歌词间的含义，旋律背后的故事，和呈现词曲家写歌的目的。很多时候，也许是把兴趣当工作了；或是重复度太高；或是重来都没有搞清楚事情的真相；我们常常会把事物的原义随着现代生活反复的律动而忘了体会，忘了投入的感觉。工作也好，待人也罢。而当中最可怕的不是“听众”觉悟了后的反应，而是自己迷茫了而却不晓得。好吧，让我们再次学习体会，对自己做的每一件事投入。对，这样应该会很不错。

这夜晚真的好宁静。你感觉到了吗？课业和考试该准备的重来都没有离开过那“该做的事”排行榜。但不知为什么，心里就是那么安静。刚结束的小组好棒，每个人都在基督里成长了那么一点点，我为你们感到开心。明天又要飞回古晋了，想到那独自的旅程，其实很累。但把眼眶放在那还没实现的愿望，为它放手一扑。。*想想，值得。不在的这几天，希望大家会过得很好。

好了，月亮爬上了正空中，提醒野猫们别再赏月了。希望你今天过得很好，希望你期待明天未知数的到来。晚安！

2011-07-02T01:56:00.001+08:00

Moral of the story:

When you're think you're good, think again

When you thin you're bad, think again as well

致：我挚爱的家乡

2011-06-26T15:05:00.008+08:00

古晋，您变得好快，好的坏的都被逐渐引进来，

别怕，有我在，我绝对不会让你腐败！

耶稣，我献上感恩，因为你要在这土地彰显大能；

为你我，他舍去华丽，来到世上把我们的罪恶拿去，

祷告, 让我们为古晋而祷告，祷告复兴的来到！

2011-06-22T02:24:00.005+08:00

I. WANT.YOU

My "Old" Place

2011-06-19T22:26:00.006+08:00

Look what I bumped into while checking mail, someone left a spam comment in a webpage and my mail was notified. Low and behold, it's my old blog in the times where blogspot were too tech-ky and Friendster was the Facebook of those days!

CLICK HERE

gosh I use to write such long post (and I was 17) that I don't even have the interest to read it through. Haha. Guess people's general attention span really has gotten worse. Looking back, guess I've changed a lot. For better or worse?

hmm :)

不要忘了做朋友

2011-06-14T23:28:00.004+08:00

面对在生活里擦肩而过的人；也许是捡垃圾的，小聚会碰面的，巴士坐旁边的，学校熟悉面孔的，都不要忘了做朋友。要记得生命里很多的巧遇都可能是搓成下一个伟大交响乐的小插曲。不要对不相关的人冷漠，无情，无视。这城市就是太寂寞，因为大家都忘了做朋友。

一起工作的同志，也许只因为工作的凑合而非得一起作战。聊得话题扯不开作业，共处的时间只有任务和交差。静下想想，不要忘了做朋友。学着把焦点在叹气的那瞬间转移到对方，认真的去认识与了解。这样不是很好吗？有了可称“战友”之号的友情，紧握着目标并肩作战的日子可以快乐许多。

好不容易找到了想要一辈子相爱的对象。呼吸的每一刻都有示爱的冲动，相见的叹息。嘿，把脚步放慢，认真的呼吸，让多一点氧气输送到脑袋去。坠入爱河的人都被情绪冲昏了头，不管好的坏的。不要忘记做朋友，因为友情是爱情的磐石，是感情的基础。没了基础，甜蜜的爱情挥霍完了之后剩余的只有苦涩，尴尬，遗憾。爱情不一定天长地久，但友情可以是永恒的。所以，不要忘了做朋友。

对着再也熟悉不过的人，性格态度脾气处事了如手掌。因为太了解，而失去了坦诚的空间；因为太习惯，而丧失了对彼此的客气与珍惜。唉，不要忘了做朋友，一个拥有互相扶持和彼此坦然的空间；一个因为太熟悉而不怕为了对方的收益抛下自尊的付出。做朋友，永远都会有更多的层次。

就算之间有年龄和生活领悟的差距，就算之间必须有尊重和谨慎的协调，不要忘了做朋友。太多的尊重只会让感情变得枯燥乏味，没有了争论的过瘾，互相给与受的健康。单方面的发表没有讨论，也不是能让感情健康茁壮的沃泥。

友谊是优雅美丽的。万物的创造者显然圣洁伟大，是世上无所可以比量的。面对着宇宙无与伦比的上帝真神，人类最自然的反应就是觉得自己渺小，无值得可怕。但，一样的不要忘了做朋友。神渴望的不单是我们的听天由命，盲目服从。约翰15章15节神说：“我不再称你们为仆人，因仆人不知道主人所做的事。我乃称你们为朋友” 。神要与我们交情，聊天，谈心事。兼至高无上，兼轻易进人。竟然如此，让我们不要忘了做朋友吧。

朋友，不要忘了做朋友。

HE CHANGED ME

2011-06-02T18:07:00.004+08:00

What to do today:

1. Get up from bed

2. ~~Survive~~ Impact the World

3. Get back to bed

Resistance to the proud, grace to the humble

2011-05-29T02:04:00.005+08:00

humble and teachable,

these are the traits that I am truly proud of for you.

All the best in your college life, a whole new chapter of becoming a man.

The Cat City

2011-05-07T21:22:00.010+08:00

It sounded pretty far-fetched a year ago that a few of them bought tickets spontaneously and said they were flying to Kuching next year. A year past and there you have the 4 of them plus me 5, took 3 separate planes on the same day from KL to Kuching. The airport person must have thought there's something fishy with my house BMW, which yes its a Wira, and its Buatan Malaysia :)

Travelling with these 4 human beings wouldn't be something everyone would like, specially when all 4 of them look like winners of some model search.

Presenting,

Huang,

which is 191 and has an Avatar body;

PP,

who looks like a Taiwanese Celebrity;

Chris,

one bad-boy hunk he is;

and last but not least,

Crystal,

who is as sweet as Taylor Swift!

No joke ae? :p

And to make things worse,

they are couples!

which leave me, the local boy and driver all alone =.=

Nah, just kidding. ~~I don't look that bad myself :p~~ Although it was a little awkward at first, things got real fun through out the seven days of their stay. I think we practically visited almost everywhere in Kuching, besides the natural caves and some awesome gardens, we covered all the way from the mountains to the city then to the beach. We even bought some drinks and went to the city bridge to drink, where Chris saw fireflies for his first time. Who says Kuching's boring :D

Besides food, the security, snakes and some huge houses around, the guys were actually very excited about the roads in Kuching. They find the roads so smooth, that you can play water slides when it rains.

This place really ain't that bad huh?

As hard as i tried, i really hope they had a great time. It was my first ever visit with friends 'from the other side' and it was my first time driving that much in a stretch in my entire life. I bet they enjoyed my driving skills as much :D

Thanks to them, i re-visited places I haven't been in years. Looking back at the same sceneries, food and places from a tourist's point of view and pressing the camera shuttle on just about everything, I realized that...

familiar things can be just as fascinating and exciting :)

Cheers Kuching!

Notice: Sushi Halt

2011-04-29T21:24:00.007+08:00

Due to the happenings in Japan, which caused radiation pollution on some Japanese imports, Sushi Love Rice will be temporary closed to ensure the best interest of all parties.

However music is not radiation pollute-able, so feel free to drop by and let the songs play (thanks wesha). Afterall Adhitia Sofyan's from Indonesia not Japan :)

Till further notice is given, keep praying for Japan, and keep loving sushi

The Shower

2011-04-05T14:33:00.005+08:00

I usually take less than 5 minutes to shower,

not that I don't shampoo my hair,

I'm just fast

but today,

i stayed there a little longer,

just letting the waters run down,

appreciating the brush of splashing waters,

as it showers upon me,

displacing the heat of the afternoon.

Sometimes all we have to do is,

Take a deep breathe, slow down your footsteps, and just

breathe

Living, a day at a time

2011-04-04T13:09:00.009+08:00

Life is like a box of chocolates, you’ll never know what you’re gonna get -Forest Gump

You’ll never know, when will the next beautiful thing comes, where you’ll be totally caught off guard, and be so intensely in awe at the splendor of that beautiful creation.

You would never know, when will love drop by your doorstep, sweeping you off your feet, gushing excitement and warmth all over your mind and body, leaving you wondering where have this person been all your life.

You’ll never know, when will that unplanned, tingling yet satisfying feeling appear; like finding yourself sitting by the window on a drizzling evening, with a random song playing in a warm coffee house, staring into the drizzling sky outside the window without any rush for anything.

You would never know, what happenings tomorrow has to offer; receiving a postcard from a friend in Paris; a love gift just when you are in a financial need; coming across a nice song while passing by the CD shop on the way home; or just slowing your footsteps and realizing that the road you take every day is actually very beautiful.

What does a year has to offer? That quiet train ride from a random city to another; an unexpected missionary trip in helping the needy build a school; a new friend that makes you wanna spend the rest of your life just having him or her to talk to; an unheard songwriter that you fell in love with; or that quiet restaurant that you began to really take pleasure in.

Life is a precious gift, don't break the Giver’s heart by not appreciating it;

It is short, so keep it simple.

"It is like a box of chocolates,

you’ll just never know what you’re gonna get"

- Forest Gump

The SWC Room

2011-03-31T13:25:00.012+08:00

i found some colored pens with overdue calender...

...in the SWC room...

...two years ago

This familiar room, with occupants that changes seasons every two years.

But yet with that two years, it would be like a second home to many,

A sense of pride, a sense belonging; a sense of importance, a sense of status?

Invariably it starts with intimidating interviews and bossy seniors;

Then comes friendships and character, sweat and tears.

Hectic schedules, stress and of course joy..

Two years passed, and now it just feels altogether distant, far, unrelated; and yet ingrained with a tingling nostalgic feeling.

I guess two years probably is a long time, cause I got chased out from the room by juniors who said: "non-swc" should not be in here =.=

Oh wells, please don't forgot what SWC stands for

Student Welfare Committee

I remember how intense I was in trying to bring this aspect of the student body, making it an available place for those who are in need, or desperate for a lending hand. but i guess, it just didn't happen.

Best wishes to the current occupants of this room! Remember you are here to serve ya!

May you live out the name and its definition that much better this year! :)

Scammed -.-

2011-03-17T11:55:00.006+08:00

I just hope writing this may help others from dropping into such schemes again. Though it may revealed my stupidity and oblivions (which I am usually not(but still =.=) )

Was on my way to Pasar Seni wanting to search the whole place upside down for wristbands which will be for the ONE LOVE event. The last supplier I dealt with which would produce customized wristbands did not place my order a week ago and just said "so now how?" to me when i found out a few days back. I couldn't do anything but just get on my feet and find lower quality substitutes

Once I reached Pasar Seni LRT Station, a few young man in their early twenties were giving out HAND OUTS and getting cold response from the people passing by. I was planning to do so too until one came to me and say "just open this and pass the 'thank you card' back to me so that I'll get RM1 commission". Well I thought why not help this poor guy here with his income so I took the hand-out, open it and gave the 'thank you card' back to him.

Just when the "dealing" was almost done and he was leaving, he had a glance at the hand out on my hand and out of a sudden was in a great shock. He said my hand out had a "special gift" word on it with a grey dote that is going to entitled me to a grand prize with minimum a free trip to Turkey. He's been here all day long and no one got it. I was really sick of their acting but a little moved by the vacation part. I insisted on leaving for my wristbands but the guy went on about this promotion is all over the papers (showing me a piece of it nicely folded from his pocket), and start asking me "didn't you see the booths in MidValley and Time Square? it's all over the place!"

Well now to think of it, he was intimidating me and at the same time increasing his creditability. But I really haven't been to MidValley for a long time so I wouldn't know. He said the only condition for you to win is I would need to take a photo with my prize be it a car or whatever which the newspaper cuttings are showing. At the same time I was distracted from his friends that kept saying I owe them a meal.

I was hesitating but he gave me no room to think as he picked up the phone, call the other end and say "hey we got a winner here!". I was continually pampered with congrats and then he said, 'let's go scanned your hand out and see which prize you've won. It's near midvalley."

I said I was in a hurry which I really was but he said it'll just take 7 mins. So from then on, I was on the taxi with him chatting nicely through the way. Remembering the face and how he actually tried striking fake sincerity in conversations, I would really like to sink my fist into his face. But hey, that's not the right to do ae?

So we reached the office, I paid the taxi =.= He said he would pay me back if I won and kept telling me I owe him a meal. Anyway I went up to the office and holy moly, I knew I've just wasted my taxi ride that instant. I was now more curious on how they planned to fake things out. The office had nothing, was more like a renovated tuition center with extended rooms but besides that, they weren't even photos on the wall.

I was ushered in one of the rooms which had only a table, two blue executive chairs and a stack of file with more newsletters on it. He went on and on about what the prize was and the companies that were sponsoring and he laid down a piece of paper stating what prize there were which consisted of Toyota Camry, vacation to Australia, Japan.. The only problem was, it was hand written =.= (*faints) I went along with his game now knowing I've been scammed.

After he repeated the same thing over and over again, I asked him " so now what?". And guess what, he said "wait ha" and continue explaining things that are totally irrelevant seemingly to buy time. "You know Pioneer? You got use this brand a? Your mum got use this brand a?"

I asked again, "so what now??" Surprised with how awful his scamming skills was (which I fell for *hits myself) he said "wait ha" again and went on with his explanations on the prizes while showing his nervousness by scribbling on that precious hand out that was seemingly one in a million.

After the dreaded time, another guy with a heavy "bad boy" accent came in the room. Thank God someone with better scamming skills and common sense was taking over now, at least I don't have to suffer more awkward treatment. So he explained, i'm going to win a big fat prize but the government tax of the prize is not exempted. So I have to pay for the 6% government tax myself."

I was like, "cool, so where's my prize?"

"Oh you have to get ready the RM7000 government tax so that when we pass you you're prize you can pay us. The company don't wanna be in a losing side right? If you got the prize and went off without paying then we're gonna pay for you"

=.=

i skipped the part where I argued my business sense with this A -Long but he was making stupid cases up.

"I understand, but we had a case (ya ya ya) where a guy went off with the prize and left us with the government tax which we bared the lost. He was also a Chinese (what???) So we don't want that to repeat"

====.=====

"ok, i don't have RM7000." (thinking hard how to leave this joke and get back to my wristbands ):

"How bout like this la, we let you prepare the money in a span of a month (oh yes! I can leave!), but this one in a million hand out (which was awfully scribbled by both of them already) we reserve for you under your name, and you put a deposit on it"

-______________- Oh come on!!!

"I'm sorry but, I think I'll just pass la"

I skipped the whole part of him persuading and making me look stupid for rejecting such a great chance.

He gave up eventually

"ok fine, you just write your name on it and state the reason la, tomorrow remember to check the newspapers and see what prize you missed" And he walked off.

The first guy took over and said "so your reason is, you don't have enough cash la? okok" so he wrote --my name and 没钱(no money) on that terribly scribbled hand out.

As i was about to leave he even reminded me of tomorrow's newspaper =.= (get a job la!)

So I left and caught a taxi back which cost RM10 per way back to Pasar Seni. Feeling utterly annoyed at their stupidity. But more than that, I was even more annoyed at my own stupidity for falling for their's!!!!! *faints.... I really thought these sort of scams would only happen on the internet cause it's just too obvious and dumb to be on the streets. And I fell for it! *AAAA!!!

On the way back to Pasar Seni, I released my distress to the taxi driver, and he said: I wasn't his first customer that experienced this, some even left hundreds with them.

A lesson worth RM20 of taxi ride and some stupid yet funny experience.Boys and girls, do me a favor after reading this, besides laughing your lungs out at me, just don't repeat what I did ok.

So, the moral of the story is:

Next time, just go get your wristbands =.=

24th March 2011

TARC DKA 6PM

"ONE LOVE"

come and get a cool wristband *rawr!

peace!

Circumstances have no final say

2011-03-13T02:06:00.010+08:00

bang my head into a rusty roof pillar.

realize it was bleeding after finding my hands stained of blood.

pain.

God you can close the wound. tonight!

prayed for a friend with an injured leg. not really healed.

I will keep on believing.

Earthquake and tsunami. badly affected Japan.

doesn't changes the fact that God is Love.

God, You reign

My Converse

2011-03-11T11:49:00.005+08:00

I've washed them

2011-03-10T11:19:00.002+08:00

nice to meet you* :D

don't get why it's so fun. hee

Love Gift

2011-03-07T13:36:00.007+08:00

After church ended yesterday, Hannah passed me a green envelope with my huge name scribbled over it. She said someone gave me a love gift and would like to remained anonymous. I was stunned, a "love gift"? I felt something gushed through my veins, it was a good sensation. I think it was the feeling of being loved, and I really respect the fact that the person wishes to be unknown :)

There was once where I brought an Australian tourist to church whom i met at the airport flying back from Tullamarine. He shoved me a green note after hearing my pastor say it is harvest season and our phone bills might increased because we would need to call these new friends. Being an Asian, I naturally said no thanks and rejected his love offering. He looked at me in the eyes and said, "don't you believe in blessings?"

and to you,

Thanks for blessing me, what i received is not just the money, but of love and a lesson in giving, and that is priceless :)

God Bless ya :)

More Than This

2011-03-01T20:23:00.005+08:00

I just flew to KL 2 weeks ago but with the schedule that packs from morning till midnight from Monday to Sunday, it feels like months. Its internship semester and most of my peers are having internship. But the fact that I did not does not mean I am free at all. Gosh i sound like i'm whining :p

To cut the story short, I have been busy with the CIMA Global Business Challenge preparations, which relates to meetings on nights on and weekends in between church services, research, toastmasters on Saturdays (made compulsory) and the meeting ups with mentors and lecturers, tell me about stress;

TARCollege Christian Fellowship which I do not know why i find no words to describe. There's meetings for everything, meetings for weekly CF, meetings for worship practice, meetings for Easter Celebration, meetings for prayer etc. Its not as work-oriented as it seems cause everyone is starting to desire more and so I chose to just yield and lay down what I can;

And then there is choir. Which I painfully decided to quit a year ago to focus on ministry and studies (Have always been in Choir since the age of 15 and it plays a huge role in molding the person I am now) but went back to help because Joey, a little sister to me whom i saw accepted Christ, changed and transformed by God, became the Chairperson of this hassling club. She accepted the challenge despite being inexperience. So I decided to support her and help out with the choir auditions and vocal teachings.

Prayer groups and cell groups are also important things that I've been sowing in. The prayer group which started last year have not ceased and people are still meeting up almost every night in hostel to pray. Same goes to cell group and church where we worship, go into the word and edify one another.

I am not done with my schedule. Been offered to be the emcee for the School of Business Studies 40th anniversary Carnival 2011 where I experienced talking a full whole day on the mic and it was really draining. Got closer to the lecturers and the working professionals as well as practice emceeing events. But still it was draining.

What I really wanna say is, I can be packed with "important" or "beneficial" activities that it really seems like life has been really awesome, from the diversity of scheduling that is. But what i learn is that, despite the work load that the hands and feet have been doing, the heart may not be benefited, be it even Godly things. I could be running from morning till night really doing things that "i should" but at the end of the day, was it really meaningful and beneficial to me, others and His Kingdom.

If all the things that I'm doing, does not carry a higher purpose than merely finishing the task, there is no point at all doing it and i would realise this sooner or later. Things must have a purpose, so that I won't be just passing by and bearing with my life till I grow old and die.

"My kingdom is not of this world." (John 18:36)

I desire to see a higher purpose in all that I am doing. I am really starting to desire spiritual things. I wanna see Heaven touch earth and God moving in every corner. I wanna see lives being changed and their destinies fulfilled. I desire to see people changing from their bad attitudes and be more and more like Christ. I desire to see the broken hearted being restored and the sick receiving healings from heaven. I wanna see signs, wonders and miracles happening in lives on a daily basis. Yes! I desire!

"Praise the Lord O my soul... who satisfies your desires with good things, so that your youth may be renewed like eagles"

(Psalms 103)

"I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me"

(Galatians 2:20)

I remember myself praying this prayer, that when people see me they will see God. May everything I do be a blessing to others, let it be a sowing into the Kingdom, to see greater things in life than the natural. Amen!

May Your glory shine through me Jesus!

-Manly Beach, Sydney

Little things in life that I don't want to take for granted

2011-02-28T14:06:00.011+08:00

I woke up today reluctantly to the beeping sound of my phone alarm. As usual the half awake body would always whisper a million excuses to wait for the next snooze but I really needed to get up to meet this guy which I grumbled bitterly for his insane early appointment (Well it's 8.30am so I have nothing to complain about actually). Gingerly, I dressed up and pulled my zombie legs to school.

It was an appointment to get registration forms from the vice-president of the Toastmasters Club. I was greeted by him warmly followed by the enthusiastic advisor who was so energetic and passionate about Toastmasters. I quote, "I am a club-ber, but I club in Toastmasters clubs around town, and I can go 2 clubs a day for a whole stretch of a week!"

After the motivated conversation, I waved goodbye to them. I was hyped up enough to convince myself not to go back to sleep so i headed to the cafeteria for breakfast along with the forms. Breakfast wasn't anything to shout about, but I did felt satisfied over the fact that I had breakfast. With a very happy tummy, I walked back to my room and got brainwashed by my bed to join his evil yet pleasurable cult.

Indeed cults are bad ideas. Was constantly woke up by calls and text messages that i decided to just forget about sleeping and get some work done. Lunch time followed and I joined Chien Ling at the hostel canteen. Its always nice to eat with her cause she has an eating speed that is almost as fast as mine, and she gives funny faces cause she feels uncomfortable when you look at her so that can substitute as dessert. While having lunch, Serene who was having her internship but got sent back to college for Career Fair texted me for lunch. I wanted to visit her plus I could use another meal so I went to college to drop by her booth.

Serene and I, along with his boyfriend and a Zuma Queen registered for a business challenge which the winner would be going to China for the global finals. We named ourselves "Miracles". Mum didn't like the name, so did Mr.Lim Ching Teck our bubbly lecturer. They thought it gave an impression of a reliance towards chance and not hardwork which was the realistic way to do things. I do agree slightly, but for me it is just simply opening up and letting ourselves believe in something much more than ourselves :) I never doubt the possibility of making it to China and with this bunch of awesome people in the team, a "fantabulous" team name, and a God that is of grace and favor, nothing is impossible :)

And so, the story continues. As Serene and I got a place in the crowded cafeteria, we sat down and started talking. Of some reason it came to Toastmasters so I told her about how last Saturday's first Toastmasters meeting was and how we needed to joined because of the business challenge requirement. And so the registration forms came into mind because she would need to fill in them as well. As I try to recall the forms... Dang! I forgot where is it! I remember myself holding the form after this morning's meet up with the toastmasters people but after that... Gosh I'm losing things again....

Just before I got the chance to panic or get depress over my favourite hobby of losing thins , I saw a stake of paper just a ruler's length away from my table. I flipped it unintentionally out of reflex, and to my very surprise, it is the registration forms that I lost! My jaw dropped as the pieces of happenings started fitting in my mind. So it means i actually left it at the cafeteria this morning and forgot to bring it back. And amazingly I came back here for a Second lunch which is usually very unlikely and coincidentally sat on the same table out of the whole crowded cafeteria. And it was only then that i realize i lost it and found it at the same time! Gosh even my words are tongued up by this insane coincidence!

*breathes

God, Thank you so much for all this. Thanks for saving me the shame of going back to the advisor for new forms and write the the a big block word of "IRRESPONSIBLE" over my head as my first impression for her. Thanks for letting me know you are truly the unfathomable God is all mighty and surpasses human understanding and wisdom. Gosh, You're just amazing!

I haven't exactly have the time to blog but I just don't wanna take for granted this seemingly small, outwardly coincidental little happening of a normal day. He is real and He cares for even small things like thisfor me. What did I do to deserve such care and love! Thank You Jesus :)

May you're day be an amazing encounter with you're creator as well as He orchestras the big and also the small sweet things in life for you and my good :)

Have a blessed day people!

崇拜太阳

2011-02-09T17:30:00.010+08:00

“哈？被单干了？早上才洗的这么那么快？”

“今天太阳大呀！”

听了这一句，我站在那顿时无语。习惯用月亮与星星的慢熬下晾干衣服的我，忘记了这自然法则的现象。突然，从记忆的无尽宇宙里冲来了一阵似光速的回忆。啊！对阿，太阳是发光与热量的，在他的热诚泡浴下被单干了肯定是理所当然的啊。我是这么了，应该是混外星人太久了。呵呵

太阳，你是一个恒星。是自我发光的一颗大球。傲然的，你是太阳系里最明亮最耀眼的一颗星。不知你存在了多久，但相信从你出生的那一刻就是这么一颗明亮，伟大的星球，宇宙里的黑暗就是你的使命，要在这黑漆漆的广阔空间里散发光和热！

活在这小小地球的我们，如果没了太阳，就看不到姿态万千的生命，日夜和季节的轮回，生态里各种形式的能源。而如果真是如此，自认天下无敌的我们恐也活不下去了。

虽然如此昂伟，虽然和渺小的我们比起来如此遥不可及，但宏大的你却是那么的平易近人。在人类渺茫无助的时候，你象征了希望。在寒冷冰冻的地方，你赐与了温暖。在灰烟暗淡的道路上，你让它充满了元气。

有时候的你，在天刚破晓时，会微微而笑地把黑暗温柔地请走，然后柔顺的在大地上添满五颜六色的色彩；有时候的你，使尽了阳刚威力，让地上的万草植物吸收真能量，好让他们茁壮成长；更是有时候，刚强的你竟也有腼腆的一面，懒洋洋的躺在地平线上，撒出无穷创意的颜色。不怪得自古以来人们便崇拜太阳，就因为你如此伟大，但又如此可亲。

我很不喜欢陳綺貞在她歌里描绘的你，她唱着那一碰就碎的太阳。虽然旋律很好听，但太阳不是玻璃女娃，在她的哼唱下太阳失去了他1500万摄氏度的威扬，歌颂不出太阳的伟大和你对宇宙的贡献。这么雄伟，这么可能会一碰就碎。

不过想了一会儿，也许，她说得对，她说太阳是个疲倦的流浪汉。我想，太阳在轨道不停的运行了好久，不停的在燃烧自己照亮他人，会累吗？我知道，伟大的太阳会用尽所有的能量继续发光发热，用心的燃烧至最后那一份燃料，但到了那时，也就必需荣光而退。

‘我热切的希望在消失之前得到信仰’，这首歌的最后一句让我领悟了。

伟大的太阳，虽然每一天只要抬头望，他都会不负众望的在天空中闪耀着，给予我们无止尽的阳光，但也许太阳也会有一碰就碎的时候，也有一天会淡然而去。那时，对太阳的伟大而崇拜不再有意义了，只有为他惋惜的挂念。自然生态轮回无穷，没有绝对的事情。最坚固的大楼也有倒塌的可能，再宏伟的泰坦尼克号也有反船的一天，而最坚持不让的恒星也会有烧尽的一天。但如果有一天我们真的失去了生命旋转的轴，只要找到了比这一切还值得手握的信仰，就算太阳不见了，心里的信仰还是会永远闪耀着光芒。

与爸爸写部落格

2011-02-02T18:56:00.007+08:00

在春节回乡期间（哇好老套的说法），得知了老爸被老乡小学委任校董主席一职。那一瞬间，有一种想爆笑的冲动。如果你见过我爸，肯定会觉得他很不真经，说话像喇叭一样豪放，衣冠也不这么在意。但当然，通街喊的博士人称，毕竟还是老乡们的荣耀

爸正积极筹备着此校的80周年晚宴于筹款建造幼儿园与他一直挂在嘴边的雨盖篮球场。就这样，我成了他的专署typer. 他就坐在旁边指指点点，我就在那疯狂的绞尽脑汁回想N年前学的汉语拼音 =.=

“素仰台端热心公益，事业有成，早年受母校薰陶启蒙。诚系母校之光，华社之幸，尚祈应允，带动母校完成建校基业，造福乡梓。有劳之处，本会同仁谨此先行谢过，千祈勿却是幸！"

什么筹委会主席啦，什么校董会会议商讨结论啦。哇，这都是在那些只有老人和年幼的小孩才会去的华人晚会里出现的词语呀。每次参加这类似的晚宴总觉得没人会理会台上在朗朗被搞的大人物。但原来，在外表很不起眼的讲词和年年都一样的晚会方式背后，有着很多看不见的努力和付出。好，我忏悔了。

和爸一起 “blogging”还真新鲜。有时他写好地搞上字体跟埃及的字语没两样。懒得问他时就拼命瞎猜，比如把“并设茶点招待”的‘设’看成‘没’，或在type 的high 时把港们弟子写成肛门弟子，谨此写成精子。哈哈。果真，本人的华语不但从来没有很好，也退步了很多。以前还能唱所欲言，能言善道，偶尔还会在作文簿子里看到年轻美貌的老师为我留下的‘情书’（不是因为师生恋而是我写的好啦　:p）但现在的我，‘适而可止’还是‘适可而止’都分不清楚了。所以，帮爸爸写的通告或信都充满了不会spell而用的代替品，‘O’先生 :)

哇！爆竹和其他奇奇怪怪的鞭炮在外头砸个不停了！耶！Kick 来了！

过年咯大家！

谨此专函奉达:

新年新希望，除了要快乐，别忘了多陪家人哦！

Happy Chinese New Year :)

When in Victoria

2011-02-01T12:04:00.003+08:00

Merry Birthdays

2011-01-30T01:32:00.007+08:00

Birthdays are always special.

To celebrate your birthday on a complete different month as it should is even more unique. To top that of, celebrating birthdays with 18 individuals born in different months of the year would simply be, extraordinary! :)

Coming from a city where there is a trend of leaving home when you are between the age of 18-25, it is hardly possible to be able to see my mates whenever i come back to town. Thanks to the person that created Chinese New Year unsure-ly how many trillion years ago, friends fly back all around the globe back home for the occasion and we get to have an old school reunion along with a warmy joined birthday celebration :)

Photorolls

Carpet lines that looked like candles to me :)

Dear amazing people, Happy Birthday to thee!

Twinkle twinkle laser star, how i wonder where you are

For the fun of it, just a little bit

luminescence

A pool side club, that sounds pretty cool by itself X)

Thank you Chuan for your thoughtfulness and effort in making this happen. you're awesome! :)

And hey, we're 2ne1 this year!

Liquid, Pullmen

What I've done

2011-01-15T12:10:00.004+08:00

Sold my hair for that amount

Promised myself to shave this guy's head one day

Studied restlessly, but doing pretty well cause He loves me :)

Prayed with different groups of awesome individuals around college for a great awakening!

and lastly,

learning how to get my hair back, fast!

Happy Exam Days Everyone! :D

Rejoice, Pray Without Ceasing, and in Everything Give Thanks

2011-01-08T11:45:00.005+08:00

If there's one word that can best describe what life is to me, it would be "AWESOME"

awesome- adjective

1.inspiring awe

2.showing or characterized by awe

awe- noun

1. an overwhelming feeling of reverence, admiration, fear etc

Therefore, awesome is actually an adjective to describe the feeling of overwhelming with reverence, admiration and fear. Yes! The precious and valuable life that i have been given freely is just so awesome! :D

Its exam period and everyone is in the studying gear with one leg on the accelerator and both hands tight on the steering wheel. The library has been so packed that its almost like a famous restaurant where you gotta wait for seats to be vacant to have yours. Although much of my time in the library hasn't been very productive, with the distraction of the silly yet brilliant gadgets from MACintosh, the monkeys that are sitting around me, and the wonderful temperature in the library that just makes you sleepy :)

Life's been really great! Everything seems to have that much more purpose now, be it studying, friends, family, and even food. I thank God that I am walking in His path right now and to let Him reveal to me bit by bit the awesome things to come, it just makes me wanna jump off my chair and shout loud in praises! :D

Yes! To see people getting to know the one true living God and be transformed by this awesome truth, its just amazing :) God, i know You love Your people, bless them tremendously, provide them growth in You and let them know You more each day and be at awe of your awesome power! :D

Mum's office vacated to PJ so its so much easier to meet up now because my place and her's are of the same train line. She's been offering to wash my laundry every now and then and everytime we see each other, she would inevitably bring fruits for me. Gosh, i'm just in awe! XD,

I do not know what did i do to deserve this, but i just wanna say, thank you for loving me mum :)

I believe, there shouldn't be a categorizing of our lives into good or bad. Life is a gift. When everything is smooth sailing, we rejoice; but when things just happen the opposite way, i choose to say life is still good because the value of my life isn't dependent upon consequences but upon what i believe in :)

(Afterall living a life without much hair currently isn't the best thing to have, but still, life's awesome! :D)

Let me end this brief post with a wonderful saying:

When life throws lemon at you, make lemonade! :)

God bless!

*photo taken in the vicinity of Sydney

True Motivation

2011-01-07T00:57:00.006+08:00

Proverbs 3:5 "Trust the Lord your God with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding"

Mathew 6:25-27 Look at the birds!.....for your Heavenly Father knows you need these...

Philippians 4:6 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God..And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

Enough of bible verses, let's allow the words to really pierce in our hearts and may the peace that surpasses all understanding to guard our hearts :)

*from the streets of Melaka

Now Playing

2011-01-03T16:53:00.002+08:00

Anthony Neely

Exam times:/

Picture Language

2010-12-25T15:15:00.005+08:00

It's December already! The month has been very packed, rushed, nourished and yet satisfying. With so many things in hand sometimes it goes beyond the capabilities of what 24hours can do, but thankfully, everything fell just into its perfect place, just as if there was a mastermind behind making sure all the jumbled up puzzle pieces fits.

or maybe there is :)

It's December! And its Christmas! This year is a very different yet significant one. Christmas to me, use to be following my Christians relatives to the Cathedral where the roads jammed up and you barely can find any car park. Multitudes of people with their family would bee into the majestic Catholic Church where the song of organs filled the air. A large cross would hung in the air with Jesus hanging on it while the priest with the altar boys are things that my Christmas cannot miss. I would be singing with the church choir accompanying while making funny faces with my brothers on the wooden chairs with hymn books. And as the service end, we would stay overnight at our relatives' place and expect to be given presents the next morning. That was how Christmas was to me :)

But ever since I grew up and came to World Harvest, Christmas was very different. There isn't as much festivity and Christmas trees with the ever so familiar baby Jesus in a manger with mother Mary and Joseph beside. No more Santa Clause outside the church giving sweets to kids or car parking jams.

Well, i've learned that Christmas though celebrated in December, means more than a festival. And with all the years put in, I am still on my way to understand how much Christmas really means to me, to the Christians, the non-Christians, and the population as a whole.

For the pass 3 years, I've celebrated Christmas in KL with this church through staging up Christmas events to tell the world about the true meaning of Christmas. They may not be jolly carol-lings, but there is worship songs, real life testimonies, and sharing of Jesus.

I myself went up on stage to give my testimony of how wonderful the true meaning of Christmas really is 3 years ago. The true meaning of Christmas comes from Jesus Christ, and the first Christmas was when He was born to this Earth through a virgin birth as a God-man, to let us know God isn't someone that sits in the clouds waiting for us to do wrong, but is a God that understands our weaknesses, our inabilities and came to this Earth to die for our inabilities and imperfection.

I shared of how God blessed my life and blessed others through me. And non of this could have happen if Christ did not come and die to make me whole and perfect in His eyes.

I give thanks that the past two years after, more people went up and gave their life testimonies. And Christmas to me then changed its definition once and for all. It wasn't a one year thing for me to go to church and enjoy the festivity anymore. Christmas was a time for me to share the good news that Jesus loves us, and die for us. This year i was involved in two Christmas organizing, one in college and the other in my local church.

Despite the long hours and the time management, I understand it was a privilege to be able to give others a good Christmas experience, the give them something better than the most expensive Christmas presents, to let them know the true meaning of Christmas :)

16th December, 630pm, Canteen 1 TARCollege. 500 students gather in a confined area with a light up stage and a few musicians and actors. Above all that, God was there because when two or three are gather in His name, He is in our midst. That night, many heard of the meaning of Christmas, a few teared, and a handful accepted the Reason of Christmas into their lives.

19th December, was our church's Christmas Celebration. It was the first time that we used such a hotel and I knew this year was gonna be a different one.

I served in the worship team, helped up in the sketch team as well as the decoration team. I have no plans to write about how tough juggling these different roles are because it was such a great honor to be used in which ever area that i can be involved and help up in.

The church might be undergoing some challenging times but I am truly amazed by God to see how He strengthens and unite His people to run the race and labor for His kingdom despite the challenges. For all energy invested, even if one life could be change and transform, i would say it was totally worth it.

But that day, people didn't just felt peace in their hearts, they didn't just have a revelation of what Christmas is, they weren't just touched by the staged up programs; people gave their life to Jesus, i saw people in pain and hurts restored by the Lord right in front of my eyes, i saw people with physical illness and pain instantly healed by the Lord, i saw people went under the power of God, and above it all, i felt God myself.

Its December! And its amazing how everything changes once your heart comprehend on something greater than yourself. Even though the year is coming to and end, i don't feel the momentum going any slower. Things are working out pretty fine :) Even in hard situations or in broken heartache times :)

It's December! And my brothers are having their school holidays. I have two brothers by the way, one ran away to Taiwan for his youth exchange program after he finished his SPM, and the other who is one year younger seem to be stuck in KL.

I brought him around, malls, public transport, Uniqlo as the picture above, Chilis, my college, my class, my classmates, my room... but he doesn't seem to know what to look forward to. Well, he's still 16 so i guess it ain't wrong to be blur.

Oh, i guess something slightly more interesting to him (which he was still giving the "slamba" face) was the charity haircut in college. His older brother was asked to bald his head if the charity amount could reached RM1500 in a week's time :)

However the amount only reached RM272 that afternoon at 12am and it was 3 hours to the closing hour. Seeing this i bought two tickets to cut my hair and my brother's in the event and i ended up looking like this

I was quite happy with it, what a new look for Christmas i thought :) and so happily i went to KLCC for a movie. But right before the i bought the movie tickets, the charity event person called and say, they've reached RM1500 and i were to come back immediately to get my head shaved =.=

*The shavee list.....

And hence, i am officially a bald guy for next few months.

It's alright, for charity its worth it even if it means getting weird stares or wrong impression of being dangerous or a pervert, which i do get =.= Oh wells! Hair grows!

With a great year behind, a bald head and a great God, I am ready to face the new year 2011 with great boldness and faith!

Are you ready!

They want my hair =.=

2010-12-13T19:23:00.003+08:00

For me, don't go near canteen two foyer for the next five days,

For charity and to cause a change in this cruel society of selfishness, go donate any amount everyday you pass my canteen two foyer

and so i saw the amount for today, RM10, Rm10...Rm1.50.

Wa, so cheap!

gotta need a lot of that to actually lose my hair

ahaha :P

hello! .... ops sorry

2010-12-07T23:26:00.003+08:00

The ringing tone of my phone buzzed through my pocket as i rushed down the stairs. I didn't bother to answer because I knew it was Sung Nung trying calling me up for not being at the hostel gate at 9.30. With a heart that beats out of its routine i ran out from my hostel block towards the gate. Manners are not suppose to be forgotten even if you're not in the mood, so as usual I waved goodbye to the guard at the gates and rushed into the Kelisa parked right in front hostel. Hey, I didn't know Ah Nung brought a new friend along, and he's on the driver seat instead of Nung, i said 'Hi' anyway and cleared the backseat to let myself in. But the weird thing was, the new friend kept staring at me without returning the greeting. I look around wondering whether he was angry at me for being late. He exchanged looks with Nung and looked back at me with the utmost awkward expression,and then it got me!

I was in the wrong car!!!! O.O Embarrassment started to inflate me, I injected my deepest apologies both in words and facial expression and then rushed out of the car. Ah! Another Kelisa was parked behind this one!

What a great way to start a new day! Now i have a new story to tell on "the most embarrassing thing you have ever done".

Toilet Humor

2010-12-07T00:40:00.003+08:00

May not be the best post after such a long time, but hey, check out my new hobby :) Its December everybody, and its the last month of this roller coaster year, so tighten up and savor the last bit of it!

Enlightenment

2010-10-29T18:11:00.003+08:00

By a magical mismatched of accident and chance, i found myself sitting in a highly luxurious car with a handsome man in his thirties driving beside while tapping on his blackberry which looks twice the size of mine. The whole world looks different out the windows of a Mercedez Benz, the smell of luxury and the comfort of the moment lit up the heavy situation that was going on then.

The same bb message tone slipped out of someone's pocket and I checked whether it was mine or his. Mum texted me. And the tone of my mum sparks of the great expectations of my parents for me. They knew i had no problems in my studies and with that unconsciously ringing at the back of their heads, i believe the person driving beside me would be the exact person they would want me to be.

Caught in the moment of enjoying the powerful engine roaring smoothly on the road, I did agree with myself that this, the whole feeling at that moment would be what I want in my future, a goal of some sort, a benchmark that my life was good.

But then it hit me. Although it felt like that blow came far from the reality that my thoughts were dwelling in, an opposing thought kept disturbing me from dawning deeper into my self-indulgence. Although I know i would really look very good in those tailor made slacks, formal shirt button till my wrist, a fabric tie with tangible patterns on it, well gel up hair, and a slick car that passer-bys can't miss, yes all this really marks what everyone classify success as, but something just kept telling me that this isn't the picture.

All those things are awesome to have, really awesome. Who says material things can't satisfy us? If it can't, then why is everyone all out looking for iphone 4, blackberries, gadgets, shoes, fashion and more. To dawned myself back into the picture, those things really would bring much sparkles into my life if i were to have them.

But, putting aside all those for a while, i do feel satisfied with my life already. To have friends, to be able to learn new things, to have the privilege of helping others, to have personally experience God and talk to Him everyday, to see more people knowing this God that loves them beyond condition, that really fulfills me.

Do i still want all the luxuries then? Why not? But not to the extend of robbing away my sense of knowing how to enjoy each and every detail of my every day, the moments even though if it is just sitting beside a dirty road having dinner with a bunch of new friends while rats run along the corner of our eyes, the times where we kept on praying even though the rain was getting heavier, the compliments you get from someone you wished "happy birthday to", the snapshots of peace and joy in people around me, and that hyped of biting into a Ramly burger with a glass of limau-ice. Aren't all these much more fulfilling? :)

I guess the biggest thing that i would not trade away at any cost in my life now is just these two things, knowing God, and enjoying the life He gave and planned for me :)

By this time

2010-10-27T18:44:00.004+08:00

there might be no one typing sushiloverice on the web address to crash on this site
there might not be any expectations of an update in this blog

but by this time,

i'm happy to say

things have been very awesome!

minus the occasional comments i get for my hair that is.

God bless you guys!
and if you feel like shouting that phrase, listen to "The Catalyst" :)

God bless us everyone!!!!!

I Wrote Your Name On The Beach

2010-10-22T01:01:00.002+08:00

Multiracial

2010-10-12T22:39:00.005+08:00

This may sound racist.... but i'm really starting to love Indians :)

photo taken at dusun eco

The Beach is Ours

2010-10-01T16:29:00.010+08:00

A day when only the moments and the sun matters

Had a great time with mum and dad cruising around empty lands, snapping photos and making wild explorations. Love you guys!

To the Children of God

2010-09-28T13:08:00.005+08:00

Differences, a word that is so beautiful, yet very often misused.

We are all made different, no two person on Earth is completely identical. This gives us the beauty of uniqueness, and individuality which offers us a variation to appreciate. I used to think that saying everyone is special only makes everyone normal but no, each person is actually very special, unique in their own way, because everyone is different.

But like the thousand times i blogged about differences, despite differences, we can't be completely different as well. You can bring a native from Sarawak and someone from the White house and despite their difference in race, social standing, background and religion, the truth is they are both creations of God, and they both belong to Him. Even if the former finds satisfaction in catching a boat-full of fishes and the latter is to be the President of the country, they both will find true satisfaction and the best things in life when they know God, which is of no difference through out the whole universe.

I really felt led to urge the Christians in my school or all around the country to look beyond our differences, to stop drawing lines just because we're different, to not submit to one another just because of our denominations. Truth is, we are forever different, we are made that way, but we do know our God is the same Almighty One, Our God has the same heart for each and everyone of us whether you're a Catholic, Methodist, Anglican, Prespretarian, or "no denomination" as how i would usually say. Our God looks beyond our differences and He wants to reign in our life, marketplace and wherever we are despite how different we are.

I believe all of us have experience how great and awesome Jesus is! However, above enjoying Him and having a great God to ourselves, we know there is more than that. We know there is more than keeping our God as our personal provider that "whatever we ask and believe, we shall receive," we know that He is not just our personal Healer that died so that we may pray for ourselves or just our family and friends. We know that God's heart is for His people and this people are all around us walking by our lives everyday not knowing of this great God that loves them as much.

I understand that our comfort zone is truly comfortable if not it would not have been called that way but these few months i just know that there is something happening in our college, our area and this country. The whole spiritual atmosphere is changing and it is literally tangible! The great news is i believe Revival is gonna hit this land real hard and real soon! So i do encourage everyone us to take that step of faith out of our comfort zone because out there, there is where the true fun begins :D !

People called me "crazy", or "over" and at some point of a time i do feel discouraged, but the truth is, who do heck cares! We know what and how it feels like to walk in His will and its way beyond persecution. I have been constantly praying with a few brothers and sisters outside the hostel for more of His presence to filled our land and each time we do we know we're drawing closer to God and He is answering our prayers for sure.

I don't care if people don't read my blog no more cause i'm too Christian, i don't care if people think i'm showing off, what i do care is that if you're a Christian and you're reading this, i really hope you will have the fire for God to reign in our land, to pray and cry out to Him to shower down revival upon this place, that "all knee shall bow and all tongues shall confess this Jesus Christ is Lord!"

I may not have the best words here to share with you about what God can do in your life but let us just "boldly come to His throne of Grace" and let Him transform us into Christ-minded Christians, to ask for a compassion for the lost and a hunger for Him to show up in our campus, to pray like never before because without prayer nothing can happen but with prayers all things are possible!

Brothers and Sisters,

Let us invest our time and strength in seeking His kingdom and not spend it to save our lives because "those that love their life will lose it." We have a purpose on Earth, and to really think about it, what is our purpose on Earth? If we know God to go to Heaven we might as well die now, if we know God to ask for blessings then why can't any of those be brought to our everlasting home, and if we know God to be called Christians and go to church, would that be even close to purposeful.

Our purpose on is to be the light and salt to this world, to not go to Heaven empty handed seeing our dear ones not coming with us. We might all already have it planted in our head but how much is this purpose really burning in our hearts and our actions?

I'm really sorry if this post sounds cocky or whatsoever but you have my word that that's not my intention and i really do HOPE that we would all live out our purpose and to pray till Revival fall on this place. Try googling or check on wikipedia about revival, its just amazing and i can't wait for it to happen.

So if you're heart felt led to pray for revival, get a few friends and start seeking Him and praying for your area, 10 minutes a day for a start. (I was truly amazed when i found out that my form 5 brother and a few friends started a prayer group in their high school and pray from 6.4 5am till 7am every morning!) or if you're from TAR College you can join me and a few others which are praying outside the hostel gate where the buses are parked at 11pm on most nights. We're not promising great prayers with powerful preaching but all we know is, God is always there :)

God bless all of you!

Let the flames begin!!!

916

2010-09-16T18:05:00.008+08:00

The sixteenth of September. I never really gave much thought to this date when i first came across it on my sejarah book, which has a picture of the "Jalur Gemilang" at the bottom right corner of that page. Few pages back was the independence day of Malaysia with the well-known "Merdeka" picture of black and white with Mr.Rahman lifting his hands up high that marks the significant date of August 31st. The date 16th of September was not mentioned much, just a light brush across.

Growing up in this country, one would never be foreign to the criticism and complains of the country. If it was the first thing that i learn about Malaysia it would be that its people did not like the country. Doubts and grapevines of politicians, stories of corruption from the highest to the lowest of society, the labeling as a developing country, the constant comparison with Singapore or any other countries, the list goes on and on.

But to pull myself out of the chaos of mouth battling and grandpa whining about the country, it is actually a horrible joke to see the citizens and locals of a country knowing nothing but criticism for their own country. Japanese fought till death for their nation's pride, American's are born to live up their national flags, people in Indonesia call themselves Indonesians, and even though having the size of just an island, Singaporeans love their country. And yet we Malaysians are a funny kind, who admire every part of the world except the land we're sitting on right this moment :)

I might not be the extremist which literally curses my homeland, but i wasn't a lover of my country as well. With a dream of going overseas all the time, i never bother to find out who's my local MP or what budget 1990 to 2009 says. I didn't know the legal age for voting cause i most probably won't be voting and i literally ignored the names of all our Agong's which can only be found in the uniqueness of Malaysia's ruling. ( I did memorize it for SPM essays though, gosh that's pathetic)

But i repent.

While in KL, i've came to know groups of people that gathers and pray for Malaysia once a week. My first reaction in mind was, nothing. I had no respond to what they were doing and have no conviction to do the same. Malaysia seems to be not even at the bottom most of my prayer list.

However, as time grows, i realize Malaysia is my country. I'm born here, not by accident. That statement does not just mean i have to live here because i'm born here. I am a Malaysian, and Malaysia is my country! I guess i need to repeat that a few times to truly grasp what it means. My generation may not have went through the war against independence so we never knew how to appreciate the country's independence. But of everything the country has gave me the least i can give back in return is to love this country.

Malaysia is our land, we might not have to fight in wars to protect the country's identity, but i think we should definitely uphold it with pride and gratitude. To be proud of our country isn't to deny its weaknesses and live with it, but i believe we can accept them and be a part of improving it instead of complaining as if we're not Malaysians. Talking bad about the very place we are born into is just bringing shame to ourselves.

Yes there is a lot of holes in this country that are yet to be filled, there is corruption in everyday life, there is poverty and unfortunates in areas all around the country, there is racial sensitivity that till now still remain a dilemma. I too wish they could be solved. But instead of creating a catastrophic bomb out of all the holes we can start being a part of solving it. To be deeply unhappy with our status quo and yet doing nothing about it , isn't that foolishness? ignorance?

Our young generation needs to snap out of the continuous adoration of United States or Korea or Taiwan and start living like you're actually in Malaysia. (we are actually living in Malaysia!) To stop criticizing and have a low-class mindset of Malaysian brands or artist or ministers, (you see we never discriminate Malaysian food, that's a good start :) To stop being ignorant and ungrateful for what this country has made us into. Think about it, we are unique! We speak at least three languages and some could even write in all, we never had a serious natural disaster and we have been heavily subsidized in petrol all this while. Our education is free and our poverty rate is going down year by year. We can have cross race marriage that could make babies of funny "mix race" like Ci-ban,Ci-dayuh, Melayu-Cina, Baba Nyonya and the newly booming race of Bananas.

A few months back, a few hostel mates and I met up and started a prayer group to pray for Malaysia. We were all blunt and confuse at first because the love for our country was so dried up that a simple act of praying for the country felt so distance and unbelievable. But as we went through prayers and prayers, God gave us a heart for our country. To love and not discriminate. Praying may have very different definitions to different people. The general meaning would be to seek God for help and for Him to intervene. But to be able to just start the simplest act of faith of praying for the country and to be able to put Malaysia in our heart, a revivalic change for this land would have begun. The heart to accept and embrace the country would have been sown into our hearts when we put Malaysia into our request to a Higher Authority.

Friends, Malaysia was formed in 16th of September 1963 where Singapore, Sarawak and Sabah joined Malaya to form MalaySIA. Without this date, we would not be called Malaysians but Malayans, which is slightly less cool. So give thanks! And let us embrace this country and be a part of changing the country.

"If my people who are called by my Name would humble themselves and pray, and turn from their wicked ways and seek my face, then i will hear from heaven, and forgive their sins and heal their land"- 2 Chronicles 7:14

I am proud do be a MalaySIAN, are you? :)

*outside my house, in Malaysia :)

Raining in Hostel

2010-09-07T19:05:00.007+08:00

Thinking Right

2010-08-30T02:08:00.005+08:00

Its exam season and as I was helping out some juniors with their subjects, i realized that most of them were aiming for a pass because they know their capabilities with academics. I didn't give much thought to it as they are thousands of students in my college and there ought to be people that are better off with academics and the not so well-offs. But as i ponder on it, i began to think that it is not always necessarily true, to aim for what we think we can and not think above that.

I remember someone told me a story about grasshoppers. Well obviously the best think they do beside being green is that they hop. If someone were to catch a grasshopper, place it in a box, and place a cover over it, the grasshopper would start hopping in means of freeing itself. But as it hops, it hits the cover, and it continues to hop and hit, hop and hit. After some time, when that someone frees the grasshopper, it will start hopping at a height lower than when it was in the box with the cover because it thinks it will hit the cover again. Which is way below what its full potential could ever be, but sadly, it doesn't know.

Like the words in the photo i took in an art exhibition, the artist knows very well of her ability and capabilities. She knows there's things she can imagine and draw; there's also things she can imagine but cannot draw;

"but could I draw things I cannot imagine, that interest me greatly" :)

Don't put a cap over yourself, if you dare to think above what you can or cannot, who knows what could happen?

:) Cheers!

Look At The Birds

2010-08-25T17:13:00.006+08:00

"...they do not sow or reap or store away barns,

and yet your heavenly Father feed them

Are you not much more valuable than they?" :)

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?

Who of you, by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

Mathew 6:25-27

"我是一只小小小小鸟", it's a nice song, but not really meaningful at all! Its exam season again, and i shall constantly remind myself how different i am compare to a bird :)

and btw, Happy Birthday Roselind! :)

pigeons beside a sushi shop by the road :)

Free Fallin

2010-08-23T13:00:00.005+08:00

If it wasn't for the urgency of things,

If there wasn't that heavy demand to rush through everything with you,

I would take things slow, as if time doesn't matter,

and get to know every bit of you, you're past present and plans of tomorrow,

just to let time pass us by, and indulge in our intimacy

*&#@!$%!!!

Dare to Believe Above The Imaginable

2010-08-18T16:30:00.004+08:00

The call to fervent prayer, the call to power evangelism, the call of planting churches, the call not just to go to church but BE the church, the call to love, the call to creativity, the call to purity, the call to excellence, the call to be willing to lay down our lives for the will of God to invade Earth.

ANSWER IT!!!

I was slapped in the face again through the realization that we TRULY CANNOT perceive or understand things with our own understanding because the things we understand are limited only to things we've learned or experienced. There are great things out there that we've yet to understand but that doesn't mean its not true nor should it shun us from experiencing it!

Am truly inspired by Jaeson Ma of his willingness to lay down his life and pray till God shows up and start doing great signs and wonders! Thank you for opening up my eyes to many things that I've limited it through my understanding and thoughts. Being in an environment where revival is not present does not mean that it should not be a status quo that we look forward to! Believe in greater things, greater than you can even imagine!

Your kingdom come, Your will be done!

Overdue Post

2010-08-13T13:17:00.002+08:00

Was cleaning my camera this morning for the weekend's trip when i realize that a lot of my photos are kept in nicely in the small yellow folders of my computer storage drive without acknowledging them to nearly anyone. I guess it caught my mind that it would probably be a waste of time to snap photos and just keep them till Kingdom come. So here's a tiny fraction of my hundred Gigabyte of photos of Melbourne :)

Melbourne has a vibrant, up beat and multi-cultural city which is strategically located in the middle of Victoria state. The brilliant architecture is one of the many aspects that really got me excited besides the very efficient transportation, colorful people all along the streets, performers and rallies, the wide choices of food, as well as the bustling people that always held a smile on their face :)

That is the Eureka tower, the tallest building in Melbourne accessible to the public for breath taking views of the city. and guess what, i did not spend RM36 to go up there :D

i took this photo standing in front of

Federation Square! with art galleries, short film screenings, exhibitions, festivals and cafes. Told you the architecture over there kills.

and opposite Federation Square is

Flinder's Station. A main train station hub in the city. Bet you love the looks of that building :)

Going around Melbourne wasn't very confusing, not only because the whole city is a rectangle box with intersections in it, but many thanks to the company i had which brought me along familiarizing the streets and good restaurants :p I hearts Japanese food!

One of the many includes:

Christopher Bong

The only Bong of its year in the whole of Victoria State.

and

Ling Yien Yien

who was once writing on this blog as well, long long time ago

Both of them are friends from Kuching which i sort of grew up with. I knew Chris since i was 7, and Yien, 13? Both are lucky enough to be studying in Melbourne University, which was where i once wanted to study architecture so badly. But all is good, being there as a random visitor thinking of the "what if's" and "what could've been", i'm happy and contented to say that i am glad i stayed in Malaysia, which made me who i am right now :)

Melbourne University

they're sort-of-canteen

what cha looking at brother

yeap, that's in their university

they're everywhere

what a way to promote school events! Bet is more environmental then giving out flyers or printing banners, you think so? :p

ah, melbourne :)

Am heading to Ipoh with mum this weekend,
pray for a GOOD time and that God will show up non-stop through the days.

Oh, and pray that i will not keep the photos of this weekend to myself :)

Take care!

Cause its You and Me

2010-08-10T18:19:00.002+08:00

You and me, we're actually very much in common. We are all given the natural talent of appreciating the beauty of sceneries outside our window, we have the ability to enjoy breathing in that first lung-full of air every morning when we wake up from our dreams, we all have sophisticated taste buds that has the capability of lighting up the whole room whenever we have a big mouthful of the food we love, how marvelous it is that when certain things interacted with us, could create such wonderful magic.

College has been really good to me. The cafeteria at the pool side is serving well-fried hash browns and scrambled egg with coffee. I still find photography and singing irresistible which both gives me the tingling's despite their subjectivity . Studies are piling up but I've decided to get work started so that last minute late nights would not be as dreadful. Even though my pocket is rather empty, i was surprise to be be able to visit the cinema twice last month despite vowing to myself not to at the beginning of the month. And i found love for a new sport which gets you dirty and sweaty but still, very happy :)

We do share a lot of things in common. We like to relate with people, people that we are able to relate with especially. We enjoy good company, which makes you forget about time and the fact that class is 8am the next morning. We like to receive personal text messages that reminds you of people that love and care about you. Sometimes, we take interest and get excited as well over things that make people around us jump on their feet. How beautiful it is to love our family which we're born into and sealed with the knot of blood and love. Its an amazing thing that we humans can have so much to say and feel about the sparkles, fire-works, shooting stars and butterflies that we have for each other although all of that, are just a small fraction of how we can describe the chemistry we have for human beings.

To love or not to love. I am glad i grew out of it and understand why i should love others as much as i do for myself. What a great feeling it is to see great things in every person and to love them without expecting benefits, any hourly basis consulting fee or even appreciation. Maybe i should appreciate them even more for teaching me patience and character. Relating with people is such a great adventure. It is not limited to how you can describe about steam burgers or football playing, it gives you the tingling's way more than what the material things can. I'm glad i take joy in meeting people, which gushes unlimited vibrant emotions which are as indescribable as how i felt trying to avoid a chocolate-selling-fund-raising-friend in the canteen but ended up finding it a nice gift indeed. Ain't that indescribable? haha

The greatest thing in common about you and me is, though many times kept unsaid, we have deep hunger for many things we can't see. Assurance, peace, satisfaction, sense of belonging and acceptance to name a few. In fact these are all the really matters at the end of the pursuit of all there is to pursue. We crave for them and seek to find it in different places with different ways. We want to know that we are appreciated, honored, blameless and loved. Yes, we all want to be love disregard of how independent, strong and tough we can be, we want to have someone exclusive to love and be love by, we want to be full and not empty. But as much as we try to rule things out optimistically, why is there always that something missing? Like how buying insurance does not really insure your heart with true assurance.

After stepping into the 3rd year of college, days have been drastically different as the past two years were literally packed with different societies and juggling different positions in each of them. Yea it helped me in lots of ways be it personality developing, CV building and network widening. But i've decided to stopped all of them and be only an active member for a local church. I won't say church is not packed, but it just seem to have a higher significance. Why, or how you may ask? Well because apart from the first two wonderful encounter we can have with the materials and the marvelous people around us, there is actually another greater phase of experience. An experience that not only satisfies our body like how hash browns and pop corns at the cinema does, or like how interacting with people and lovers saturates our soul, this phase has the highest nature of satisfying ALL that was said about the needs and wants of us. Assurance, peace, love, faith, they grow and mature as we deepen our understanding in this amazing person that made all these accessible. Someone that has a radical love and the ability to make miracles in every difficult situation. And once a person knows how much he or she is loved and treasured, everything's different. To look back at the years like pages of a diary, the true satisfaction, joy and life about college is to come to know, understand and grow in knowing Jesus who was God and yet came to Earth and died for us so that as a result, anyone that would respond and just acknowledge of His priceless love in return will have no needs unfulfilled!

You and me, we're actually very much in common, we need the excitement and the variety of ice cream flavor to choose from (can you imagine Baskin Robbins selling just one flavor?) We need different people in our lives at different times to make life interesting. And yet we also need God in our lives because it is only through Him that we may enjoy and reap the "unseens" and find lasting satisfaction.However of all three needs and experiences we have in life, the latter is actually the greatest. Because we can have the best food and entertainment and have no joy; we can have the best lover and have no peace and assurance; but if we put God first above all these, life can be truly fulfilling and every second (including this very one as you read this) is worth enjoying :)

Smoking Indian outside the window

2010-07-31T17:22:00.007+08:00

"Hey Dave"

"What?"

"You look horrible with that cigarette Dave"

"No its an accessory"

"it still looks bad =.="

TGI-Friday

2010-07-23T13:23:00.018+08:00

All i feel like doing today is,

to rest under the shades of the trees outside my window, watch the clouds drift by on the light blue sky, listen to the music that i never had time for, read a book in my own secret world, and have plenty of coffee

Coffee's ready, picked the perfect book for the perfect Friday, turned on a couple of songs, chose the most favorable chair, laid back, took a deep breathe and flipped the first page..

*phone rings.

Well its not always about what you feel like ain't it?

Ah wells,

it does not always have to be all about us i reckon :)

*photo taken from my room

But the greatest of these is Love

2010-07-17T01:05:00.009+08:00

"For God so love the world that He gave His only begotten son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life"

Too often we repeat this verse, with such faithfulness that as if the 16th verse of chapter 3 in the book of John has been printed on the surface of our hearts. I recalled the first time i went to Canaan land to buy my first bible, it was the only verse that i knew that i could compare it between the different versions of translation. But with all honesty, I've never gave this world-wide used verse a deep thought, never even thought of why of so many lines there is in the full bible with such thin pages, this verse was so often-ly seen.

Have you?

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At times, its hard to love people that are naturally of no significance to you, a course-mate that you've never talk to, a stranger that rubs off your shoulder on a busy day. At times, its difficult to care for people that does not bother whether you exist or not, the people you are reaching out to, the back slided ones that would really prefer if you could stop calling them. And at times, it would be even tougher to love the ones that brought hurt and pain to you, an abusive father, someone that humiliated you, or a cheating partner.

I mean, think about it, why do you bother loving people that just do not care? Why pour out your heart to people that prefer you to disappear? Why love the ones that has so unfairly broken your heart, why?

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Had a great dinner and movie over Eclipse, despite having heard so many negative criticism over the movie. Too absurd they may say. Bella was so in love with Edward that the world does not matter anymore, that if a bullet were to come by one of them the other would not hesitant but to take it for the other, and that without the other there seem to be no meaning to life. Such intensity and passion. Maybe that's why people don't like it, that they think love of such measure does not exist, or it's just too much. I continue watching them parading their love, and the movie shifted gears suddenly the next thing you see Bella who just accepted Edward's proposal got into a real passionate kiss with Jacob right in front of him.

Drama. The sharpest knife into Jacob's throat would not even be enough to ceased the pain of hearing Jacob's mind caressing intensely on the one Edward love so much. But Stephanie Mayer did not write such brutal scenes after that, she made Edward stand still, and take no hate nor anger upon anyone...but why?

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"For God so love the world that He gave His only begotten son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life"

When i re-read this verse, it started speaking to me from mere memorizing into deeper revelation. It started of with the last line, that whoever believes in Him would not have to go to hell no more but rejoice in heaven for eternity. How great is that! Hallelujah!

But then, as this verse appears through time, the focus somehow shifted from the emphasis of heaven and hell to the first few words. "For God so love the world". Have we thought of that.

God so love the world, the world that has forgotten about Him and His love, the world that is not even the size of a speck of dust as compared to the Universe, the world that walks on its track like any stranger on the street, the world that does not care whether God exist, the world that does not want God's love, and tramples on it like a joke, the world that rejects His love, and betrays Him since the beginning of man, the world that is like His imprinted lover, destined to love Him back but yet chasing after other foolish and insignificant things, hugging and kissing passionately on the lips of things opposing to God and neglects totally how God has to feel about it..............

Yes, even though the world does not appreciate Him who gave up everything for us, John 3:16 says, He so love the world, that upon all that could possibly be imagined, He still chose to give His son and die for the world, the world who is us. Think about it.

I really just can't possibly imagine if i were to be in God shoes, pouring out His unconditional love even if we do the most foolish things to ignore, mistreat, trample, joke, gossip, laugh, blasphemy and betray His love. I don't know about you, but we who have known and has responded to such precious love by accepting Him, what more do we have against others? That Heaven's unconditional love is in us no matter what we did or will do, what more do we have to withhold against people that ignores us, mistreat us and hurt us.

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During prayer last night in that small stuffy room after a repeated hurt and the questioning of love, we sang this song over and over again knowing deep inside that God has granted all the answers that we ever need..

"Yes I Love you with the Love of the Lord,

Yes I Love you with the Love of the Lord,

I can see it in you, the beauty of my King

Yes I Love you with the Love of the Lord"

*photo taken in the beautiful house of God in Sydney Hillsong

Being typical for a purpose

2010-07-14T16:07:00.011+08:00

I've live, in one of those, for 2 years

Typical, normal, nothing special

and people ask why don't you move out?

well...

just because :)

Jason Castro

2010-07-12T15:48:00.004+08:00

The song just makes you happy :)

For all the heart-breakers and heart-brokeners, enjoy :)

Streets and waffle ice cream

2010-07-11T16:06:00.001+08:00

:) i'll buy you one

Campus Church!

2010-07-07T16:51:00.004+08:00

We are all Called, to live this abundant live :)

stop focusing on all your problems but others',

stop focusing on what God can do for you but what you can do for Him,

stop going to church like its a 7/11 shop where you get what you want and leave,

stop worrying about evangelistic attendance but reach out to them and their friends,

start praying for people around you and if you don't have the urge yet, pray for a deep hunger!

start praying for a revival in your heart that you may truly feel how much your friends need Christ

start loving, caring and sharing what God has to offer to your campus! be it free dinners, homework and most of all the love of God!

its really the time and season so be apart of it! :)

We are the church, lets be the church and bring Christ to our campus!

Lets hunger for Him and hunger for revival to come and see multitudes save!

Come on people! COME ON!!!

Evanescene

2010-07-03T11:02:00.011+08:00

A good way to brighten the skies, is to remember the great things, dwell in those wonderful memories for just a while, and be truly grateful for all of it :)

Gardens seem to play a big role in the cities i've been to in Australia. Everytime i browse through the city maps, they ought to be an area in green that looks relatively large compared to the city areas of buildings and junctions. I guess parks and gardens plays a certain role in lifes of these people. It's somehow a-must-go place even if you're not a fan of nature :)

I remember walking through this particular garden. Not a famous one, rather it was just a neighborhood park where people pass by each day on their way to their different roles in life.

No fancy fountains, designed landscapes, and not filled with people. School kids passes by eager for fun and excitement elsewhere, neighbors walks through because it is a shorter route, and joggers jogs by just to finish their routine.

and then, a boy with a camera walk passed, not in any rush, but waiting, to capture moments that would make the most out of the garden that he thought was beautiful. Maybe beauty really lies in the eyes of the beholder. But why would beauty slips away through time?

I believe every passer by must have fell in love with this park once upon a time. They would have really love the old trees along the walk way, or the green fields that they would lay down and talk about anything under the sun, literally, or the leaves that falls with different pace floating downwards slowly to the ground.

The park never changed, so did its beauty. The routes and paths were always there, the old trees were faithfully standing, the field stayed lawned all year round for anyone to lie down, and the sky was ever clear.

so what changed?

People used to be so in loved with a certain beauty, beholding it with much adoration. But as beautiful things keeps being available, it is being vulnerable of being used to, expected and soon, taken for granted. Humans, why are we such foolish things. Wasn't it us that wanted continuous great things and loving people showering love and showing beauty, but yet when time goes by, we got used to beautiful things and say, beauty do not last.

Yes, i believe it is just human to be so. To look beyond things and be unappreciative when availability isn't an issue. Why be so loving and available when no one appreciates?

Before leaving the park, i asked the park that question. And she told me,

"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails"

I was enlighten

Chan

2010-07-03T03:03:00.004+08:00

*gulps

feels weird reading his blog. Utterly awkward.

but yet, its all so familiar.

Though we never knew each other, i know you've been someone special.

I thoroughly understand how you feel buddy :) May you reignite the relationship and hang on to that someone that died for you, yes not her, but Him who gives the most important relationship above everything else.

In Jesus name i pray

*amen

Look Who Moved In Hostel

2010-06-30T18:23:00.005+08:00

!!!

I've yet to come out with names for them

but like how i would greet any new comers

Welcome to the Hostel!

Life Thus Far

2010-06-22T11:11:00.004+08:00

Abram was facing a critical situation. His land was having a severe famine that probably would cost him and his people their lives. Out of desperation, he ran away from famine to Egypt along with his wife Sarai traveling through the harsh roads to a greener land. Logically, the migration would have been right.

Before reaching Egypt, Abram started to worry about Sarai, as she was beautiful and attractive. He knew her looks would captivate the eyes of the men in that foreign land and he might be killed in order for them to get his wife. Being tormented between losing his life and letting his true love being taken away by evil man, he drowned in his thoughts thinking of a way to curb this situation.

"Aha!" Abram after juicing out all that his brains can think of, he came out with the idea of pretending to be Sarai's brother. That way he won't be threaten but would be treated well because her "sister" has a Meagan Fox body with tight Egypt World Cup Jersey and Angelina Jolie's lips.

On the fact that guys would treat the hottest girl's brother well to get to her might have been a historical pratice, the Pharoah of Egypt really got his eyes on Sarai and brought her into hispalace.(details thereafter are censored by the bible) Abram on the other hand, was treated well with lottery winning numbers, play station 3, five star hotel buffet, free MAS tickets to South Africa and servants that all looked like Jessica Alba. Sadly, only if he really was Sarai's brother that all those would make any sense to him. He, was truly depressed, feeling as if the world has end seeing his wife brought into the palace with all other details censored!

However, because God had a promise with Abram that whoever curse him shall be curse, the Pharoah was suddenly inflicted with serious disease, (which i do not wish to guess) and he summoned Abram. Abram spend the next few hours being furiously lectured by the Pharoah for telling everyone that Sarai was his sister and therefore taking her was not really a wrong thing.

"Now here is your wife. Take her and go!"

And dear Abram, while leaving this land which he should not have came, looked up to the skies with a guilty yet child-like relieved smile, and thank God for clearing his mess even though he screwed things up.

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What did Abram went wrong? He was thinking out of a good logical heart to save them from famine when he left the land to Egypt. He was also thinking out of a good heart when the idea of calling Sarai his sister. But things got screwed up. They always do don't they? Getting a low grade even though we spend the whole night before studying our brains off. Your girlfriends leaves you, even though you really knew that you gave all that you had to her. Your parents get disappointed with you, even though you really tried your very best proving things to them. Or you fall into serious depression again out of all the above situation, even though you know God is there, always there waiting to help you.

I am glad thus far, that i have the same God looking after me as Abram thousands of years ago. Even though i did not go to Him straight away when things around me feels like a serious fatigue famine, even if i tried relying on my own mind and coming out with ideas that are preparing me for trouble, even if i screwed up and lose one's that are deared... i know, that my God is so big and strong, and who really loves me, can turn things around and help me out of my situation, without fail!

It is my heart's prayer that you too, would come to know this great God. Because we would always screw things up no matter how hard we try or how much we've given in, we all need this God that loves to saves, loves to help, and loves to LOVE.

May all glory and praise be to Him!

WHAT IS LOVE

2010-06-17T14:32:00.005+08:00

Now Hollywood wants to make you think they know what love is. But I'm a tell you what true love is. Love is not what you see in the movies. Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene, you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice. Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself, love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love. Love is when you lay down your life for another, whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister, its even laying down your life for your enemies, that's unthinkable, but think about that. Love is true. Think.

I'll put you in front of me

So everybody can see

My love, this is my love

I know that I'll be alright

As long as you are my guide

My love, this is my love

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres.

Love never fails. Love is everlasting, its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time, love is the only thing that will last when you die, but ask the question why? Do you have love?

There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends. Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends? You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother, your father, or your best friends, but are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you? I'm going to tell you who did that, the definition of love is Jesus Christ. He is love. The nails in his hands, the thorns in his brow, hanging on a cross for your sin my sins, that is LOVE he died for you and me while we still hated him, that is love. God is true love, and if you don't know this love, now is the time to know, perfect love.

-Jaeson Ma

真的, 我沒事 - 符致逸

2010-06-15T16:14:00.003+08:00

天亮后，I will be fine

Its an "Auntie" thing

2010-06-06T14:35:00.006+08:00

"Ah, why do i feel sorry for them". I was talking to myself in a sardined monorail on the way to Bukit Nanas. The self-conversation was ignited from the sight of a handful of fifteens hugging each other on one of the stations with such intimacy that does not feel like it came out from the right place. I would really be convinced that the guy would be punch so hard if the father of the girl was to witnessed it; but yet again, maybe not, since everyone takes it as a norm these days.

I squeezed out of the sardin train with the imaginary pain thinking what if my daughter were to be touched freely and willingly by some other 15 year old. I would definitely punch the guy hard on the face.

An old lady in her fifties was holding a big yellow map in hand which distracted me from my self-invented pain while i walked down the stairs on the pathway to Dang Wangi Station. (No i did not ask what she thinks about young kids hugging each other) She was puzzled with her surrounding and waved around with her pointing directions while the young lady that was seemingly helping seem as puzzled as well. I "kepo-ly" approach them. The young lady saw me kepo-ing so she excused herself. And so, i was left alone with the auntie that was blabbering in fluent Cantonese, which i never picked up despite TVB dramas being on par with Disney when i was a kid.

"Shera-ton", she read it out loud with the low pitch emphasize on the "ton" that sounded exactly like how Honkies (Hong Kong people) would pronounce English words in soap dramas. Yes, she was from Hong Kong along with her two sisters which wobbled to our side while i researched the scribbled map and the aunties going frantically about how grateful they are :p

Oh! Sheralton Hotel is at the back of Dang Wangi, which by now would probably be too dangerous for the three aunties to wobbled their way back. Hence i offered to walk them while casually warning them to be careful of robberies. The next thing you know, their relieved faces stretch into tense faces with their eye balls almost popping up asking about safety and security and Malaysian police and... "C Lai", they are amazing creations :p

With the limited vocabs i have in Cantonese, which probably does not sound like Cantonese after all, i was surprisingly having a good time talking to them, about families, holidays, food, Sarawak and "KLCC" (i wish i could pronounce that in the Honkie way here :P) Of course they go all the way about their kids and their kids' education and career. And till we had to say goodbye, i wished the road to the hotel was longer. I think they were saying that they were thankful by their murmuring of "hou hou yan a" but i felt great myself to be able to lend a hand to 3 lost Hong Kong Aunties that were so cute and adorable. Hopefully they would not have to come across any robberies throughout their stay,

although its probably something you can only find in Malaysia ;)

to my favourite Aunt, Auntie Ching Pui :)

which speaks Cantonese too, but English to me la

The colors of Autumn in Melbourne

2010-06-02T15:10:00.003+08:00

i drew this on the cup i gave you :)

color. beautiful. nature

Great Ocean Road

17th April

one of the great day trips along the longest scenic coastal drive.

The Great Ocean Road was constructed to provide work for the soldiers that came back from World War I. It is a 243km stretch road along the south-eastern coast of Victoria.

It would cost quite a bit if i were to travel the seaside roads through tourist packages, but thankfully my nice warm uncle and aunt packed us up in a cruise van and drove us all the way.

And because of the trip, i got to cover the towns and suburbs with their funky names like Geelong and Warnnabool :)

*birds*

*young girl*

Thats a Proton!

As normal as seeing a monkey along the outskirt roads, Koalas are seen lazing on trees munching their snack all day long. The word "koala" is said to mean, "doesn't drink".

*happiness*

The Twelve Apostles

which are a collection of limestones stacks which are constantly under erosion due to the weather and the waves.

There is only 9 stacks out there but due to tourist purposes, it was called the Twelve Apostles

The titanic size of the rocks back against the breathe taking view of the sky and the enduring waves makes my imagination run wild for a moment, thinking that maybe it was God's display of artwork, which makes it even more artistic knowing that these artworks presented in the eyes of the viewers are by itself undergoing changes. And in a few more million years to come, it will have a aesthetically different appearance.

Wonderful :)

Last day of the Month, First day of the week

2010-05-31T18:28:00.010+08:00

Had my biological clock turned around last night trying to finish some calculations that just doesn't work that well when everyone else is having the alphabet "z" floating on them while i have numbers and math symbols on mine.

What a good way to end a month. Drag myself up after a brief few hours of shut-eyes and rode around the neighborhood to get my stuff printed before the 8 o'clock class. Attendance..presentation..more numbers... friends...and before i could notice, class was over. I reckon the answer for that question was to divide my single eyelids into another half.

What a good way to start a new week :) Rushed back to hostel with the full intention to skip the next lecture. The room was cooling, and i drown into a pool of vanilla ice cream with raspberry toppings and banana slices. Or was i dreaming already?

Don't worry i'm not gonna go on about what i dreamt along with all the vivid descriptions of what and who appeared. But at certain state there really wasn't a distinct line between the real world and dreams. I dreamt of real life people saying real life things that could really just link back to the real world and fit in it. hmm, strange.

Could dreams really tell the future? Or its really just our mine and imagination running as it wishes?

A blue box appeared on the bottom right corner of the desktop
*yUrine has just signed in*

Names are actually very important, people are prophesying over you every time they call you. *winks ;)

Ah, photoshop. I'm finally done with you. Sometimes designs comes with a passion; sometimes it's just obligation. But i'm glad even the latter isn't that bad because you still end up making something that never exist before, exist!

"i praise you because i am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, i know that very well.

Psalms 139:13-15"

And i'm thrilled to know that He made me not through obligation but heart-filled compassion!

i crave seafood spaghetti that has melted cheese in every inch of the dish with chunks of scallop and generous portion of fresh squid and big fat prawns!

i crave a nice warm cup of frappucino that blends so well you can't tell whether its chocolate or coffee.

i crave understanding from the people i honor most even though i may seem to be a disappointment. I'm sorry, and i shall write in soon when i get my words right.

Disappointment, i thought i've learnt to fully control you from letting you invade me, but smart are you to turn things around and use me to invade others.

you wait nia! i'll get you back one day!

cheers

领悟

2010-05-28T20:01:00.007+08:00

曾经，很想很想去旅行。很想鼓起勇气，捡起那装满梦想的背包，那很向往看世界的相机，和那还没成熟的小心灵，硬着头皮到一个陌生的地方体会，体会不一样的生活方式，体会除了熟悉之外的习惯。

也许童话故事不是真的，但我想说，梦想成真是真实的。

走了好多路，看了好多从没见过的景色，

在特别薄的大气层下普照的太阳，在鞋里隐藏的海边沙粒，

脱了皮干燥的嘴唇，当地人可人的热情，

许多不同文化背景人的交流，英文腔的迷失与重获，

在陌生的城市里反复的迷路，街边卖艺的音乐家，

许多第一次遇见也可能再也见不到的朋友，脑里许许多多的领悟与想法，

肚子里战胜的异国美食，从早到晚停不了的相机先生，

(有时，见证了好，难免会对不好有所想法。但也许“入乡随俗”也有反过来用的时候。嘴边一至随口就提，人家听了也很烦。所得没错啊，这是这里，接受事实啦。Hm... 我只好小声地在心里说“哦”。）

但我坚持相信，诞生在这里不是意外，不是巧幸, 更不是不幸。移民不是回答这问题的答案。见证了好，就要实现它!

但不管怎样，我还是发自内心的快乐。

还是会大大声地想你说的，

旅行万岁！

Photos

2010-05-28T10:46:00.003+08:00

am gonna post the few Giga bytes of photos i took in Australia. Get ready to finish your bandwith! haha

Stay tune

No Reason To Hide

2010-05-22T10:23:00.004+08:00

Was there two weeks ago. Am never the same person again.

You're alive and we are free

You are everything, everything we need!

just feel it

Nationality

2010-05-13T19:13:00.003+08:00

If Koreans keep speaking Korean to you,

nope, no comment

haha :p

no wonder there's still friends that still think i am :p

over-exposed.

why? cause i wasn't the one holding the camera :p

coming back this Sunday morning* woW!

p/s: all the best to you :)

Real Life Farmville

2010-05-10T15:15:00.000+08:00

He said to his disciples, "the harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few"

Fellow disciples of Christ, let's not miss out from the harvest, be the ones that would be available, that would stand in the gap for the lost, that will see with our spiritual eyes of our open doors. I believe in the word, that the harvest is plentiful! That there is so much fruit waiting for the willing laborers to harvest them! Let's not missed out on the timing and season, it is now!

"Be sure of this, I am with you always" Mathew 28:20

Thou shall not fear, for we have the universe's Greatest beings living and going to the harvest field with us, what more do we lack?

Let's farm babeh! :D

Embrace

2010-05-09T18:19:00.009+08:00

There is an extreme agony, that has been passed down for generations. Research shows that the pain that the host feels is one of the most extreme pain that one can ever experience. However unlike any suffering in the world, this pain was a result of something beautiful, and it was because of pure love that makes that pain worth enduring.

And because those amazingly incredible people were willing to endure this tremendous pain called child labor, you and I are able to sit in front of your computer or phone reading this write-in.

Thank you for everything!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!

I love you mum

Bondi Junction

2010-05-08T21:28:00.004+08:00

I wanted to ask you whether i should skip surfing for souvenirs,

but i didn't cause i know you would say

"up to you"