Good Friday

When i was a kid i never knew how significant Good Friday was.

I knew it was the day that Jesus was crucify but i didn't felt and understand it deeply.
All i remember was the whole church would hold candles and the lights would be turn off,
looks very peaceful and holly to me :)


And for many years, I was looking forward to the day that my birthday meets the same day as Good Friday :p And it did! haha

But actually, actually Good Friday wasn't just a holy day for a holiday.
(My primary school was St. Paul and we do have holidays on holy days :)

Hey! maybe the word holiday originates from Holy Days XD
~~~~checks wikipedia~~~~~~
O my o my, it really originates from Holy and Days!!! XDD

To me it means everything there is to a Christian.
EVERYTHING

On this day,
He was punish so that we shall never have condemnation,
He who who never sin suffered punishments and brutality so that we enjoy all the WONDERFUL blessings,
He who died on the Cross so that we have a new covenant with God :)

Though a lot of Christians hold slightly different teachings and believes (like me and Yien).But ultimately we love Christ and Christ love us so,
let's just be very happy to be siblings in Christ :)))

THANK YOU LORD FOR EVERYTHING
everything oooo, everything everything ooo...
no matter what you say bout love....
ops :P

Edison "Chang" Newest Pictures!!!

Also known as Anthony Chang Moir, and the female star is......Banana Phang!

"The man just kept denying that the man in the picture was him and all of those were just photoshoped pranks :P"

"Don't you get it???!!!Its not me!!!!"

Few days later, Banana was caught cam whoring with another male artist XD


Ops, Threesome =.=''

They love tasting their round-nies..

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other pictures..

How far would KL-ians go for a shuffle performance?


Its just a random Saturday evening without any occasion man...


Group photos...


which i seldom take


Nimai, Hussein, Javian, Yien and me and Jo

o yea, i just remembered that i was coach of the BL's under 15 bball team. Way-the-go team!

I'm a cat magnet

Sometimes i just wish i was a cat, with no worries, no school life, no homework no pressure,no.....

but with,
care and love and nourish and prepared food and drink and cuddles and kisses....


i wanna be a cat <^0.0^>

green tea for the win

I didn't realize this..

but, i was drinking green tea just now..

and i sweat shitloads.. (in an air-conditioned room)

O_O

why? no wonder loh, green tea is the ULTIMATE health drink.
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Yesterday...

After Malaysian studies class (i don't like that teacher. FINISH PRESENTATION ALREADY STILL CANNOT GO OUT?! ) So we decided to go to the GLOBAL education fair at merdeka palace (so near ma).

Aiya, what a disappointment, where got global. I was interested in the first place cause it wasn't the same ol' AUSTRALIA-UK-NZ-US education fair. I wanted to see JAPAN & KOREA badly. *sigh* Saw Ai Dee though. She "grew" a lot. AMAHJING. XD

before that, we were finding the place. U see ha, sarah parked her car at level 2. WE DIDN'T KNOW THE FAIR WAS AT LEVEL 2. So we stupidly went to the lobby, wandered around then went up to level 1. Then we went down again to find adik yi wei(small but mature boy XD) Then we went up again. THEN finally someone told us it was at level 2. Wa lau, exercise a.. -_-

After 10 mins, we were like..so BOREDDD.. so we went out lo. Sigh, I NEVER LIKED MERDEKA PALACE because of piano exams. It's like a freaking maze. NO DIRECTION. So us, pretending to be smart, walked to the "emergency" stairs.

Then it was like kinda chilly, we were quite lost. So we decided to head back to ask for direction.

OMG.

THE DOOR CANNOT OPEN!!

Shit la, all of us were like.. O____O we don't want to die there!! We panicked like shit, rush to level 1. OMG DOOR LOCKED ALSO. Lobby, OMG door cannot open. -___-

I was starting to sweat again. (of course la, run up run down, if you don't sweat, it's weird, no?)

then, YI WEI TO THE RESCUE!! thank you small but mature boy.. :D :D

We called him and I bet he was like "WTF??!" XD Took him quite a while to find the emergency door. All of us were like SO RELIEVED. XD


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I want my SPRAY, HERE RIGHT NOW! N.O.W!! RIGHT NOW!!!

i love sica's diva attitude. :D



4.28 s. Sica's damn hawt. The mc OBVIOUSLY has a crush on her.

Taeyeon + Joo Special Stage

Taeyeon & Joo singing If and Because of A Man.

Both very good singers..

BUT OBVIOUSLY TAENG RAWKED!!!

Shucks, I'm not fond of Joo's singing during If. It's too "breathy". It's like she's gonna pass out. Girl needs to learn correct breathing technique. Taeyeon on the other hand, *speechless* AMAZING! Even thought Because of A Man isn't her song, she totally rocked it!! I'm not being biased. :]

How are you?

Thats the question i would prefer compare to the repeating of "how's your result?" or " why did you come back??" Maybe its likely for us to lose the touch of care and sensitivity when we're around people who need it the most.

First things first, I went to KL weeks before with total uncertainty of why and what I'm gonna do. Only then I found some sparks of purpose so follow through it by visiting campuses. Maybe i could find something i thought. That made me feel better cause at least I'm doing Something.

There wasn't so much campuses to bump my schedule-less time with round the capital and soon, i find myself purposeless again in the middle of the country's most bustling city. Everything's in face pace and so are the people around me, the only think I found static or even backwarding is the figure of myself.

Thanks to God I have a few friends around town, mostly hometowners which has a higher ability of understanding than random people i meet around colleges. So meeting them up and talking to late nights were my choice of relaxing my dilated veins and i have to admit, escape from the monster of uncertainty.

I prayed, I pray a lot. Probably every few hours. I think people find God mostly when they are in trouble and I was always against it because I prayed often, sorta talk to Him all the time. (I dislike threatening emails bout God where by you "have" to forward it to claim your fiathfulness) Maybe i should learn to clear the Grey clouds misting my ears from Hearing biblical sound waves. haha.

Days just pass in KL exactly like its no one's business. And soon SPM results are just round the corner. Seriously i wasn't nervous or anxious even to the last minute, I was having confident of what my faith leads. So maybe the idea of coming back to Kuching and the booking of flight which happened all in 10 minutes was the way of faith too, hopefully. All I'm doing is trying to swallow every uncertainty there is and be ready of whats gonna happen tomorrow. ( i really mean it )

Reach Kuching Airport on a Monday morning. Not surprise to see no one picking me up. Got a ride home eventually. Home was still how it felt but the person walking in looks sort of out of place. I think spending the extra cash for air tickets wasn't a total waste as i did benefit from the "short-stay". Met friends, talk to lots of people, mirror myself clearly and grow not that much but still more than none.

With a blink of an eye I'm all dressed up in Manchester United jersey and going to school for results. The bright red didn't sparkle much enthusiasm and i didn't have the chance to explain why i wore that to the press. haha. Results were ok and if anyone ask me I'll just say "hai hao" or "not that bad". And yea, I'm grateful to God for everything.

Not going to mark a better spot for scholarships with the results but there's still discounts offer that are better than none. I put it this way that the not-so-perfect results are works of faith to lead me to the accurate path if it wasn't for it, it might be a different story altogether. But yet, this leads to more uncertainties which I'm really tired of handling. Anyhow, I'm leaving everything to faith and keep believing!

That raps up all the missing posts that i could have posted and sorry for all the drama. Hope people don't really mind bout throwing me a farewell and saying goodbyes and goodlucks but i came back, though they constantly "hang" it on their mouths.

Random : I'm currently working at night at a Xcel petrol station in Padungan. Told you life's full with 'uncertainty' XD

yours sincerely,
me.

Dear Lord..,

I'm sorry I didn't study well enough. I know last minute studying is horrible. I know that I didn't put much effort into studying for Form 4 & Form 5. I'm so sorry I was such a rebel when I was 16. I'm so sorry I pissed off some teachers.

However despite yien yien being bad at times,

THANK YOU because i have the best, lenient parents ever because they don't give me pressure AT ALL. (just no fail = OKAY)
THANK YOU because i have the best & most supportive family.
THANK YOU because i have AWESOME (but weird but it's okay) friends. :p
THANK YOU for giving me SPM results i've never dreamed of (8A1, 2A2, 1B4 [moral, ish, aku tidak bermoral :p])
THANK YOU for allowing me to get A1 for sejarah despite me never studying for this subject and always getting 50+.
THANK YOU, I can continue my scholarship for my A levels.
THANK YOU for making my last 2 years in BL the best and most memorable I had because I've never remembered myself studying like crazy.

THANK YOU because you making me feel happy and lucky 24/7 because i know you're always there for me.

ILY LORD!!

In Jesus' name i pray,

Amen. (:



OOOOHHH, i'm supposed to do this for Mr. Bong Yang.

I know a lot of people kepo kepo so eager to know his results. :p

He got......


**drum rolls***

1B3..

3A2...

9A1 !!!

in nice terms : 12As and 1B

Shit a, this yang, still say, "I'm disappointed" LOL, if i had his results, i'll be FLIPPPPIIINN happy. Yang, cheer up!!

The subject he didn't get A1 is Moral (STUPID 2%#%#^ SUBJECT, we shouldn't be bothered), EST (again..another lame subject), Art & Chinese (this is hard. ._. )





I want my hair to be poofy, like...got volume.. -___- I'm so tired of blow drying my hair every single morning. I gained muscles because of that. Now I look like I'm SO STRONG. Don't ask me why I'm SO conscious about the volume of my hair. It's a girl thing. Hair-no-volume-and-not-poofy = BAD HAIR DAY. I hate bad hair days, it's like the worst thing that can happen to me in the morning. My hair is quite thin. Grr, LING YUN YUN, WHY DID U STEAL ALL THE GOOD GENES. My bratty sister is skinny(she cannot grow fat), tall, slim, slender, has THICK wavy hair (yet she complains about it, i know right,WTFFF), HUGE eyes, jaejoong's nose, cute mouth. Yien Yien is FAT, tall (a bit taller than her), not slim, not slender, has thin straight hair, average-looking eyes, SUPER FLAT nose and ugly mouth. Why do i get all the recessive alleles. And to add the "cherry" on top, I have SENSITIVE skin. HELL, even Yun Yun sounds better than Yien Yien. Okay, it seems like I'm feeling inferior or unhappy but I'm not. *flashes grin* :D


Next Monday, Bio test lagi. Why do we have tests every week. O_O Good thing is, Biology DOES NOT EQUAL to history. (I HATE history with a passion)

Tomorrow morning, I bet EVERYONE would be like "How's your SPM results? HOW HOW??!!" *adds jealous glares* my class so kiasu one. Sigh. Spend your whole life worrying about scores la. -_-

Okay, I need to be serious now.
My goal is..
I need to get Straight As for the four subjects I'm taking now which is Biology, Chemistry, Physics and Maths. Which is hard I admit. T_T
Why must I be so interested in Biomedical engineering?
Thank God I just need to pass my Moral and Malaysian studies. U just don't know how much i HATE these two subjects.

I have class tomorrow. It's going to be tiring. Maths, Chemistry, Biology classes in the day ; Physics at night. *drops dead*


please baby baby baby geudaega nae aneh
numoodo gipi deurowa bo il ga iron nae sujubeun gobaek
baby baby baby sal myo shi dagaga
boodeuron noon ooseum euro noye momeh seumyo galgoya

i hope i did not blind you. :p *sings along* PLEASE BABY BABY BABBBBYYYY!!!!
Soshi is going to promote this song tomorrow!!!! omg, i love this song!!!! And ggoggoma leadah taeyeon is going to perform If, goodness, i love this song to death. GO GO LEADER TAE!!!


and I saw Mr Tan today. He was sarcastic as usual..

"Yien Yien, You're so EARRRLLLYYY today." *grins* "Please sign this."

I knew it. Almost everyone signed it already except for me. Mr Tan ah, you don't need to be so sarcastic. :p

I've got something to say ....

cock XD


Goat

(don't refer me as a goat by any means if you feel like teasing me cause yang's direct translation is SHEEP)

ignore the ugly pictures and read these three items in malay super fast XD
anyway yien i like reading your post :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

TAEYEON!!!

my tae baby, sweetest, bestest(omg, better than yunho, i ADMIT),dorky leadah !!!!

darn it, needs pic spam. but. i. use. my. bro's. comp.

****meanwhile.. changes pc because this post is FAIL w/o taeng's pics****

TAENG is officially 19 YEARS YOUNG!!!!

Forever ever my favourite soshi girl. :D the dorkiest leader.

and I'm tired, that's why the pic spam is PATHETIC. I wish i live in Korea, I wanna feel how it's like living in the world's most WIRED country, where you get an average internet speed of 60MB/s (THAT'S LIKE SICK OK!! and it's average some more) My friends say if you go to Korea, there's NO SUCH THING AS VIDEO LOADING. no such shit. Sigh, i envy people who has high speed internet. *refrains from blaming the government*

rant.

...i hate college life...

i don't like being pressured to study all the time BECAUSE we have tests like every week..
i don't like MALAYSIAN STUDIES AT. ALL. (DO NOT WANT!!) screw those presentations and unnecessary projects.
i love to procrastinate, it's impossible to let me sit down for 30 mins, reading notes unless the next day we have exam.
grrrrrrr....

I DON'T LIKE SPENDING MONEY EATING OUT!! even though I only spend like RM5 for lunch ( i only drink sky juice), argh, i'd rather spend my money on CDs, clothes, books, concert tickets, air ticket etc. I really don't like eating out. It SUCKS.

I don't feel healthy at all, I don't seem to be sleeping well, I feel FAT FAT FAT. I'm sick again. Stupid flu, my nose is like the water pipe, -___-.

However, i'm studying my arse off so that i can apply for Melbourne Uni. If i get straight As, i might get a scholarship. That's all i care for. :p Kinda don't like spending my parents' money to get into uni.

When something bad happens to me, something good happens too. (: Cause u see, college's gonna move somewhere NEAR my house. YAY!! This means I don't need to eat out anymore. :p

And I actually enjoy my physics class. Can't believe I'm saying this, but, I LIKE PHYSICS. I've never enjoyed physics, I hated pn Haryati's class, at first i kinda like Mr. Lee's teaching, but then his horny jokes were LAME and RETARDED, I eventually quit the tuition. XD

And, I think my chemistry lecturer is pretty annoyed by me. Err, okay, since forever, I can't really sit still for like 1 hour and half, listening to you preach chemistry. If i really do SIT still and it seems like I'm paying attention, I'M NOT. In fact, I'm dreaming away. But, if I have something else to do (like finishing my homework/studying some other subject/read something/listening to music), i can actually pay attention. Odd, but that's how it is. But my chem lecturer doesn't seem to understand that. :x But she doesn't scold me directly. She's damn sarcastic.

Once I was reading Archie's(i love archie :D), I DID pay attention, but she was like, "YIEN YIEN, WHAT BOOK IS THAT? IT SEEMS SO NICE, U'RE NOT LISTENING TO ME" *everyone stares at me* "errr, Archies! :)" She looked at me with this grin, so freaky. But i could tell she was quite irritated :p

I'm quite sick of the kiasuness of the class too. Like gimme a break. Why compete for every single thing. Now i miss 5B. oh man, i know how almost everyone in my class comes from the "5A" class, so it's inevitable that most people are KIASU. Seriously, like W(ho)TF would care if you finished maths the fastest? if u score the highest mark, so what? I know someone who's quite angry because..... -_- I just thought that you shouldn't be too narrow minded, but he/she beats u, then be it, you DON'T have to be so MAD about it.

Today is election day. DAP DAP DAP DAP DAP. :p I don't like BN, period. boo.


Taeyeon singing SPRING FLOWER.
Simply AMAH-JINNNGG. :D Gah, i love this girl, so effin' talented! i have putting this on repeat!! originally by BMK(Big mama King)

YIEN YIEN WANTS TO BE A BIOMEDICAL ENGINEER!! :p

Music Bank is on, i'm waiting for my soshi girls to perform!

Randomness in KL

~ I still feel kinda misplaced.

Suddenly i get free internet access by neighbouring wifi. Just have to on9 real close to the balcony and "steal" free access XD Is this illegal?

For people that still care whether i'm alive and doing well :-

I've been running around colleges and universities in KL hoping to find a course that i can settle with. Yes yes i know i'm already in KL but yea, still don't know what to study.

All this while I'm thinking of doing actuarial science which has a high demand in the sense of commitment, determination and of course capabilities. I'm use to people giving me that "huh?" look when i mention actuarial science.haha The first 2 i thought i could fullfill but when it comes to capabilities, i have absolutely no idea. Parents keep asking me why i doubt but...i don't know myself.

So basically if you would be a sweet heartand understand how i feel these days, its--LOST. I'm rolling all over town asking bout course which if u ask me why i asked about it, i don't know.

"What course would you like to enquire?" any frontdesk people will ask me this and i just search blindly in my mind for any vocabs.

"erm...business :s"

"ummm..sports management"
"orrrr..music appreciaton :) "=.=

Think i'm losing my mind again. Let me just show you what i come into these days, i won't say its boring in fact it was quite an experience, better than sitting home lying around.haha.

First stop, Taylor'sNow Taylor's isn't popular out of no reason cause it does give people this sense of college or higher education atmosphere or whatever you call it. It does looks kinda cool but i thought its architecture building wasn't much different from secondary school. With the floors and the corridor similar to schooling days.But its not a bad thing, i think. And there's Asia Cafe just round the corner and Inti's beside it, "conjested" is what people complain bout it, but i'm pretty fine with it. The downside that i was brought to maybe was the accomadation that the people showed me. It looks very...non-mood-condusive.hehe. A O yea,met Anthony and he looks jolly happy to be there.anyways for me to rate, i'll rate it,,,,,

3 and a half out of 5 :)

Next up, INTI college

Didn't plan to walk in but apparently i did. The staff was friendly, the school wasn't as appealing as taylor's but than it does look pretty much like a college seen from tele. O yea, they're having their new "block" opening next month and the top 2 floors of the " i guessed 15 floor building" is for accomodation. How cool is that? It'll be like having the best floor of a luxurios apartment. Just that it cost quite a lot for a month bla bla bla.. i rate it...

3 out of 5 :P

Then, i went to HELP

For those who still think HELP is some ulu un-heard of college that is not well-known or whatsoever, bring your ears closer to me-- IT IS WELL-KNOWN OK!!!

Hmm, thats the original college i'm going. First impression of it wasn't good cause...its UNDERGROUND. Everything's underground! That did freaked me out at first. And then i was brought to this counsellor that made me feel more bad bout taking actuarial science or even business studies. He was pouring all sorts of terms and concepts and me as though he never spoke to any human for the past 10 years. skd@#$%%ishjdsfd#$%6... what was he thinking man?? you're a counsellor and you're suppose to make people convince of studying at your school not showing off how much you know bout whatever studies your indulge in.

Anyway since i came here for HELP initially so might as well follow through its orientation. Went there feeling a little out of place again but soon met people and felt much better. Met up with Ian for like 4 mins and was back to the lecture room. Didn't feel much better bout the place untill we got to the other campus where American degree Program (ADP) students were.

OK, basically ADP people are nothing much from 5B people. They're fun, some are a lil too hyper some hot some .. A lil bit of some here and there. Basically the share the same traits as 5B ppl which is, they're very proud to be ADP students and they think they're someways superior over other departments. I'm kidding bout the latter.I really like it, so does everyone there. A lot of activities going on, the decorations which i like a lot and the american way of college which you basically have an idea from "American Pie : Beta House", well im just kidding but minus the getting laid and strip show stuf, its more or less like that. O yea one more thing, the ADP education system just rocks man. find out more your own XD

Too bad i can't be joining them :( sobs. Made some frens and said "see ya" and realise how sad those 5alphabets are. If i join them i'll be having 2 subjects for the whole sem.Ok,,,,i'm sad now. Nice meeting you guys! Girls over there, you look HOT, guys, well not so bad C:

i rate it..5/5 :D so bias.haha

I feel very delighted that i could have internet so that i don't get mad of boredom and the fact that i could blog things out so that i feel better and of course, i have this bunch of idiots that are willing to read all the shi* i write so, thx for making it for me people :)

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BONG YANG IS GONE (not dead yet :p)!!!!

*wails*

I didn't even sempat to go to the airport to say bye bye (not final farewell :p) because i was BUSY. with. CHURCH CHOIR. grr, nvm. Since i will have a long break for like the whole month of June, i will go to KL to find Anna and Yang. OMG, I MISS THEM SO MUCH!!

what i miss about ANNA BANANA THE PANDA
- her eyes. LOL. Anna is the only person in this whole wide world with beautiful panda eyes. boo.
- her smile, her face, her chibi(mini) body.
- "Is this skirt too short??*
- Her VOICEEEE.
- shopping with her and spending one hour in a store looking at the same thing.
- her sweet lil "arguments" with paul :p
- HER LAUGHTERRRR. It's contagious btw, her panda giggle or laugh will make you laugh too!
- "Yieeeennnnnn, wo you pang le!! ZHEN ME BAN?!!! wo jia ren zhong shi xiao wo!!"
- "YIIEEEEENNNN, wo du zhi shi bu shi hen DA?? -_- ZHEN ME BANNNN???!!!"
- "YIEN!! want to eat this?? =D"
- times of ali, anna and I. GOOD TIMES.
- her sharing choc banana cake in the physics lab (yeahor, why always in the physics lab, got radioactive substance, but it's not like it will prevent us from eating :p)
- when we talk about "things that matters to us" :p aiya, GIRL TALK.
- us copying homework while talking about our lives/gossip
-.......(the list goes on)

Actually, I don't even know why she go take QS, she didn't even know what this is in the first place. -_- But, I wish all the best, I hope she will come back to Kuching, I hope I will come back to Kuching in the future too.

what i WILL miss about yang
- our bitch fights, arguments, debate over EVERY SINGLE THING. (don't believe me, ask 5Bians, anything also can argue one)
- us bitching about other people when things go wrong.
- GOSSIP, omg, he's so good in digging gossip lor, i'm not that bad too la.
- us finding the "rumor" funny and laughing over those nasty,ugly,stupid rumors. Some people have WILD imagination.
- talk about happy and unhappy things. (:
- his single eyelids. HOHO, i like to make fun of that. XDDD
- "skinship" LOL, as in "abusing" :p
- his EGO. (eh, some of you might think of him like an angel, so kind and humble, sometimes he's not like that, he's quite egoistic, shucks, hope he doesn't read this :p , i said SOMETIMES lar hor.. not all the time.)
- chia me eat
- him lending me money cause i always forget but when i want to pay back sometimes he won't accept it(which once led to an enormous HUGE argument over MONEY in school but haiya, partly my fault cause i %#$^%^ and partly his for having such a big ego :p)
- ........(cut short cause i want to sleep)

I WANT TO GO TO KL A!!!! no no, they should come back to Kuching! (: they know they want to come back, huhu..

Last minute notice

i don't know how well this will spread but, whoever that knows me and wanna say goodbye or whatsoever, come to>>>

Location: My house ( if you know where )
Time : tonight at 7
Date : Use brain la 1st March
Dress Code : As sexy as possible Impressionist XD

All welcome with one regulation, you don't stink and
bring good food.
Ok that was 2.hehe.

Come ba, though i really don't think much people's gonna read this.hehe.